TUM SE HI

Hopeless

Kartika's POV

"Or aaj use yaad karte karte 20 saal guzar gaye. Pata hi nahi chala ye jo hum jis raste par nikal pade hai usse nikalna muskil hai. Unhe bhul pana muskil hai per kya kare Dil per kisi ka jor chalta hai kya. 20 saal beet gye or pata bhi nhi kese dhikte honge wahi khargosh jaise hi to nahi jaise bachpan me dhikte the. Uhne hum yaad bhi honge yaa nahi. Is sab sawalo ke aage ek sabse bada sawal hai ki uhne koi or to nahi mil gya? Hm jaise aaj Tak unka yuhi Jo intezaar kar rahe hai kya woh bhi hmara intezaar kar rahe honge? Khair fasla Jo bhi ho hm unse Ishq karte hai. Bhut pyaar karte hai or hmesha karte rahenge humare pyare Agy........"

(And it's been past 20 years while remembering him. I didn't know which path I was choosing there was no turning back after that. I can't forget him,how can I? Does heart listen to anyone? I don't know about anyone but surely it doesn't listen mine? It only beats for him. How does he looks? Like rabbit once he used to look like in childhood? After all this questions one biggest question will still be there. Does he found someone else? Here I  am just like waiting for him all these years does he wait for me too? Well whatever happens just one thing I know I love him,I love him so much, unconditionally, undeniably wheather he does or not. My lovely Agy...)

"To aap yaha hai Laila ji, or mein tumko pure Ghar me dundh rahi hu or tum yaha chat per apne pardesi premi ko khat likh Rahi ho heh?"

(So you are here Ms Laila, I am searching for you in whole house and here you are writing letters to your long time lover at rooftop huh?)

"Offo Sanchita di aap bhi na"

(Offo Sanchita di no)

I stopped writing and took a deep sigh and turned around to look at the my cousin sister who was actually glaring at me both hands on her hips,even being angry she still looks like beautiful most beautiful lady. My lady love. I know how much she gets angry at me but she loves me more than anyone. After my parents' death I only had my grandmother Kalyani Sen (Biji) she took care of me, educated and trained me to be capable enough. Then Shalini Chauhan my  masi whom I call maa as she took care of my real mother.  (mother's sisters) she is the best masi in the world. She is supercool sometimes you won't even believe she is mother of 3 children.
Then comes my mousa ji Abhimaan Chauhan who is strict when comes to decipline but very sweet to me. I call him papa. He never left me to feel an ounce of my father. Whatever he brings for his children he bought the same for me. He took care of me as her own daughter.
Now comes to my devil party yes you thought right siblings and when I call siblings means I have my crime partners. Maa and papa has three children Sanchita Chauhan who is oldest among us then comes Viraj Chauhan who is second oldest and I am telling you he bullies me the most but actually very protective for me and then comes our the youngest chubby and cutie Tanya Chauhan who is the apple of everyone's eyes. She calls me didu, shares every secret with me and it's a secret she loves me more than that those choozas. In short I have all my best family and I swear I won't even let anyone to hurt them.

I smiled sheepishly and walked towards her and hugged her tightly and talk on baby voice.

It's time to show the charm.

"Sorry na meri pyari di I was just writing in my dairy you know na i can never ignore you."

Nothing was hidden from her when I say  she is my best friend, she actually is. From my meeting to going to love phase of realisation of madly in love with my Agastya she knows everything about.

"Chal hat pagal, 26 ki ho gyi h or baachiyo wali harkat gayi na Teri" She pushed me little away and I giggles at her word.

(Shu go away, you brat, you are 26 now still behaves like baby)

"Ji bilkul nahi hum chahe 26 ko ho Jaye ya 56 ke baache wali harkat to hum karenge hi"

( Nope I won't change even after 56 years)

And suddenly She holds my both hands and cheekily smiles at me and my sixth sense are answering me some gossip is coming and I raise my eyebrows at her at excited face to ask her like 'what's the gossip for today?'

"I have the biggest good news for you kittu and you will be the happiest person in the world to hear this news." She was grinning widely, and that over excitement I could see her in eyes. I chuckled at her expressions which was way more than funny.

"Aacha asa kya? Aapki shaadi fix ho gyi kya?" I bite back my laugh at topic I know she would sulk now.

(Really? Is your marriage finally fixed?)

"Yaar Dhat Teri ki kittu Sara mood karab kar diya. Hume nahi karna koi shaadi abhi or na Hume nahi Jana kisi ke Ghar me bartan dhone" she left my hands and crossed her arms and huffed loudly.

(God kittu you spoiled the mood, I am not marrying yet I don't have any interest in washing dishes at others house)

I pinched her both cheeks and hold her hands and kissed it. She is a baby like my baby di. Who will think her as the oldest?

"Ok ok I understood now tell me what was the good news?"

She holds me from both side of arms and squeezed it while smiling "Oh yess Kittu!! Teri Murad poori ho gayi. baba ji ne Teri sun li kittu tera pyaar ki intezaar pura hua"

(Oh yes Kittu!! You wish is granted now. Finally God

And suddenly my heart start beating loudly. I feel like loosing my sense. In all these years when I at some time loose the hope it can't come back. It wasn't right what I am thinking what I am feeling no no it can't be!! and my eyes widened; I lost my balance, my breath hitched at her remarks.

"Agastya is back Kittu. Your Agastya is back."