Addiction

This is it

Ron's POV

We get Inside...and we already never talk to eachother...and now we didn't say a single word to eachother..."umm zara.."I called..."yeah" she replied..."we have to go to this family get together...it's on next Sunday...so we have to prepare for the gifts and all"...she nodded...okay I'll buy the gifts online...

They both got ready for bed and layed on the each corners and they drifted off to sleep...

It's morning...

Zara's POV

I opened my eyes and the room is bright by the sunlight...I was laying facing him...his face so close...I layed there without moving...I thought

"why after all these months...I'm feeling so different..."he opened his eyes...his brown eyes looked into mine as he opened...I look away ...and I got up and fixed my hair...by running my fingers through it...

Good morning he says ...I replied "Good morning..." God my heart was beating so fast...

Zara's POV

It's been days and it's the night of the family get together....I was getting ready in a black dress...and gold jewellery...my makeup clean and neat...my hair styled...
I was in front of the mirror finalizing everything...and I hear Ron's voice...

Ron : zara!! It's getting late come on...(I opened the door of the bedroom...she was standing there in a black dress...I froze...she was so beautiful...she looked very different...my voice cracks)

Zara : yeah let's go...(I saw him in a white shirt and black pants...God...I couldn't say anything else after that...I cleared my throat..) Let's go I said as I picked my bag and I walked out of the house he locked the house...

We are walking out to the park he is behind me...and my heels were too high...it was a bit uncomfortable...I tripped...the least thing I wanted to happen...

he held me again...this is not healthy to feel this way for your husband after 6 months of marriage....so sudden...I look at him...I got reminded of the moment that happened last week...

I quickly fixed my position and we got into the car and we rode the car to the place and I got out of the car...his relatives greeting us...

it's a family get together of his relatives so I was a bit uncomfortable...no offense though...his sis approached me...

I took her in my arms...Heyy...how are you Sana...I said ..she shook her head in enthusiasm...I'm good...did you buy my chocolates?? She asks with all her innocence....I chuckled... ofcourse I did let's go in first I said as we walked in

Ron's POV

I saw my sister running and jumping into zara's arms...it made my heart feel some sort of warmth...I smiled at them..

yeah let's go inside... I said as we both got in we sat on the couch of the living room...we started talking to some of my relatives... they asked about how our married life was going...and we said it was going great...but I know that she thought the same thing..."the distance"...but we acted like everything was perfect...

my little sister was on her lap talking and yapping about her kindergarten...ohh so you have alot of friends huh zara asked my sister giving the same energy as my sis...yeah I doo and my teacher said that I am the most smart one you know...my sis said as she held zara's face...I loved the way zara was talking to my sister...and listening to all the nonsense my sis yapped...

my mom walked over to us and gave us a hug...so how's everything dear she asks zara...zara smiled and said everything is perfect...how are you mom...I'm fine dear...she said...and she turned to me and said so Rah are you treating her well...I nodded yeah mom I'm trying my best I said and we started to greet others my cousins...

one of my cousin walked to me and she hugged me which was not normal at all in our family... everyone were looking at us ...It was very awkward to me...I could feel Zara's gaze on me...but I didn't say anything and I made some space between me and my cousin

Zara's POV

His cousin hugged him...I felt a pang of jealousy...he has never hugged me...not even once and he is hugging his cousin...and no one else hugged him even his mom didn't...but why did she..I was looking at him...he didn't do anything and continued talking...

I was so uncomfortable standing there while that girl hugged him and the whole family is seeing my reaction...I didn't react much

I said "um...I think Sana needs to sleep...I'll go to the balcony... it's a bit quiet there...I said and I came out of the house to the balcony...I sighed...I look at Sana she was sleeping...I sat in the chair while Sana rested her head on my shoulders... while I continued to hold her

The night passed by we ate our dinner and it's time for us to leave..so we were heading towards the car after saying our goodbyes to the family ...

Ron's POV

We got inside the car...I know that zara was a bit angry that my cousin hugged me and it was so awkward and uncomfortable for her to stand there like nothing was happening...we were silent...we didn't say a word...

I glanced at her "zara.." I called out...she looked at me she had no emotion on her face...yeah..she said why are you so quiet...I said trying to talk to her even though I know the reason for her silence...she said "it's nothing" I didn't say anything after that and we reached home,

I opened the door and we both got in we changed to our comfortable clothes and she was sitting on the bed while going through her phone...I walked over and sat on the other side...she turned off her phone and layed down...I sighed..and I did the same I glanced at the figure of her back

"zara..can we talk.."I said she turned "sure" I started to say "why are you being so quiet...are you angry that my cousin hugged me?"

Zara's POV

I was so angry at him...I was very angry...but I was quiet...he said "say something please..." I took a deep breath and said "yes I am...I am angry that you put me in a very uncomfortable and insulting position...

he sighed...it was just a hug zara... why are you reacting so much...I said my voice firm and a bit louder

"just a hug huh...then why have you never hugged me huh why...if you can give just a hug to your cousin who is trying to flirt with you why is it so hard for you to hug me....in 6 months of marriage have you ever hugged me Ron? And you think it's easy to see her hug you? Am I that disgusting....am I that gross...am I that ugly that you don't even dare to touch me...huh?

Ron's POV

I was so shocked by the sudden loudness and vulnerability in her voice...I felt a pang of guit as she said that...I have not touched her but that doesn't mean I am disgusted by her...

"don't say that...I am not disgusted...I am definitely not grossed out...you are not ugly.. please don't say that...

"then why are you doing this Ron??" She asks...I felt so guilty...."I am sorry...it's my fault...I should've not distanced myself from you...and I should have not let her hug me...I'm sorry...I thought you would feel uncomfortable...I thought you would not like it...

"why would I not like it?? Are you stupid huh!! Why would a girl not like her husband touching her?? " She shouted as she sat on the bed
I got up and sat....

"I know I messed up...I'm sorry...let me make it up to you... please..." She stood...leave me alone Ron...she Said...I felt pain...I was hurt..."Zara please..." She walked away...

I got up from the bed and held her hand...and pulled her onto my chest...she was so close to me...I was holding her waist.. she stiffened her body... "don't force yourself Ron..."she said..."I am not forcing...I need this... please...I need you...I am sorry" I said as my voice was so deep and husky...

I rested my forehead onto hers...as I held her in my arms...I closed my eyes... please...I said