The Weight Of Life. { A TNN Fanfiction }

CHAPTER 5 - FLATLINE

TW: suicide
This part is not alright I am so sorry.
He HUNG up the phone btw
I KNOW I SAID I WOULDN'T KILL HIM OFF BUT I CHANGED MY MIND IM SORRY
poor reecey
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Autumn just lost her baby. I felt terrible now, I was supposed to be an uncle. What happened. Now I wasn't going to be an uncle I had no use. Nothing. Nobody needed me ever! Why would they need me.

I'm useless.

If I'm useless no one will give a single FUCK. If I died. I could die! I could go out the easy way.
But I was scared
I was scared to lose 38 years of living
But I wasn't.

I wasn't scared I had a plan. I knew NO ONE would be awake at around 4am. So I planned it then, at that specific time I'd kill myself, let it all end. Finally everyone would be better off without me.

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4am rolls around I've stayed up all day waiting for this very moment. I've been waiting for it all to end for so long now. I slowly made my way to the kitchen reconsidering this whole thing. I knew it was for the better. I hesitantly picked up the knife. And just stabbed myself full force. I carried on just stabbing and stabbing till I couldn't breathe.

Everything went dark.

I felt my back hit the cold tiles of my kitchen.

I went numb
I felt nothing
Slower & slower my heartbeat went until
Flatline.

(coming from auts perspective now <3)

I woke up in the morning winter was still sleeping beside me I felt.. different, it felt more empty like I've lost someone but it wasn't the grief over the baby, i knew it wasn't. It felt like someone close.

Reece.

He sent me a message saying 'I love you.' Last night, that was NOTHING like Reece. It did worry me but I thought nothing of it. I sighed. I got out of bed and was getting ready. I was going to go to Reeces house to check on him, I always had spare keys on me in case of emergencies.

The drive there felt different. It felt empty, not in like actually empty I mean inside.

I slowly pulled up at his house and unlocked the door. The sickening smell of blood hit me. My heart started beating faster.
I made my way into the kitchen first.

I saw him.
Lifeless.

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anyways! How are your days going <3
next part will be more from auts perspective