Black Butler X (Malleus) Reader

Getting off my chest.

Is it really that hard to follow one simple rule? Literally my number one rule is to not pressure me, the author, to update. It's literally says in all my books. Literally the first fucking chapters of my books. It's not that fucking hard. You're either fucking dense as hell or don't follow simple rules like a child would.

I'm an adult, not a machine. Next one I see to tell me to update, I'm done. Just done. I'm sorry, but like, that's literally the most simple and easiest rule I have.

I just want to have fun writing these chapters, but you guys (the ones that tell me to update) ruin the fun. I want to update on my own time. I'm an adult, I have adult responsibilities. I have my depressive episodes. My anxiety episodes.

I have to take my grandmother to her doctor appointments, take her to the store for groceries, take her to family events when they happen. I have to help my mom whenever she needs it, like go to the store to get her medicine if she has a migraine, clean the house, answer her texts/calls since they can be very important.

Literally my grandma has been having dizzy moments ever since she came back from Mexico and I'm keeping a watchful eye on her since I'm basically her caregiver. She's fine, so don't worry.

About to be 3 years this year, but my grandpa passed, I was gone for a month from here because I couldn't deal with just picking up my laptop/phone and move on. I still hurt from his passing because he was like a father to me. I had to drive him everywhere after his surgery, he taught me how to drive, taught me a little about cars.

It's not easy being an adult. It's really not. And I just one simply rule to be followed. I'm not a machine that can just type a full chapter of 4k to 5k words in a minute. It takes hours. Literally people are asking me about the Hashira Arc of Demon Slayer, like let me breath! I can't drop everything just to focus on that. Literally the first episode is like 40 minutes. That takes like 3 days to type for me. Probably even more if I don't focus, since I have the mindset of a 2 year old and can't stay focus.

I wish I could be a teen like any of you guys. I wish I could relive my high school days, or even my elementary days, I really do, but I can't. I cry, I hurt, I'm happy, I get excited, I bleed, like any other person. I have emotions.

So, please, just follow a simple fucking rule. Because if not...I'm done. I'm sorry.

But to those, who have stuck with me and never asked me to update. I really thank you, appreciate you. I really do. You all have said nice words because some of you are authors on here too. You know the feeling of being pressured to the point you just give up writing. If it keeps happening, I might be right there with you guys and I really don't want it to happen. I really don't, but the others just don't make it fun.

Thank you for reading. I'll be taking this week off to relax my brain after all this, so unfortunately no chapters for until then. Thank you again.

-Memesuga01