I missed the rain today
I mistook it for the tears in my eyes
Nothing could ever mend
What is lost, not just broken
My darling, I've found
My own company to be so burdensome
And sometimes, I wonder if that's why you left
I couldn't do anything by myself
I'm sorry
I do nothing but cry
I just really want to die
I'm overflowing
My love is such a shameful thing
So suffocating and tiring
I know, I know
I'm here for a little while
But it feels like I've been trying
To keep my head above water
For centuries and no end
My misery that's filled with perfectionism
I'm an over-achiever who refuses to do anything
Afraid of such failure
I have to be
So proud of me
At some point
I will
