Cure in His Soul

Chapter 4

I instantly stood and ran back from the village, gripping, holding, and panting, knowing someone was behind me, catching up.

I offered all my strength just to bump a damn tree! I stopped for a little while before running away again.
 
    "What a damn tree!" I'm pissed.

Sa kakatingin ko sa likuran hindi ko namalayang may puno sa aking harapan! Hinawakan ko ang noo kong dumampi sa puno, masakit 'yon!

Wala akong sinayang na oras at nagmadali parin, I have no time to feel and lullaby myself with that damn ache!

Ramdam ko parin ang enerhiya ng taong humabol sa akin, kaya mas binilisan ko ang takbo ko.

I stopped when I noticed a light near my position. It was like a coruscating gem. I instantly ran towards the light and picked it up, discovering a necklace with a crystal pearl pendant.

Lumipas ang ilang minuto ay nakabalik ako sa bahay namin. Hindi ko narin naramdaman ang taong 'yun pero yung pagod ko, sobra!

Umupo ako sa aking kama at pinagmasdan ang nakitang kuwintas. Nakakahumaling ang ganda nito, ngunit sinong tao ang makakaiwan nito?

Our province may be known as a tourist attraction, but our village is not frequented by visitors. It's considered a covert village, being far from town and surrounded by a foreboding forest.

But perhaps some travelers or explorers have tried. ''Come on, we live far from the old ways,'' I reminded myself.

I chuckled at the joke inside of my mind. Maybe it's Dora the Explorer?

Crazy, Sonomi!

I stopped thinking about the stuff and packed my things so we could go to my place in Cebu. Just a summer visit.
 
I've also been planning to go to school there since then, pero ngayon kumuha ako ng summer lessons lang.

One reason I want to go there is because I want to travel to different places.
 
My mom and dad are actually tired of me; I didn't complain even once because of transferring schools! Instead, I enjoyed it.

I like exploring places; I admire not staying in one spot; I want to get out of my comfort zone. This may also be because I want to prove something to myself.
 
I am normal like the other teenagers; I can go outside without feeling hurt because a kid or a person got hurt; I didn't hear any sounds far from me; I don't kneel enduring a pain that's not meant for me; there are no headaches from the tears; I shouldn't cry.

I'm training myself to be normal; that's my goal. Living with secret, unknown feelings and emotions feels like betraying myself.

It feels like I am just a body, and the system controlling me is the mind that I should follow. I am controlled and don't budge because that's all I can do; there is no cure, not even prevention.

I am in a cage within another cage. There is no escape unless the clap of death invites me.

Nagising ako nang maaga kinabukasan. "Bye ate," paalam ko kay Malia.

Babalik parin naman ako rito kahit busy, ipagpapatuloy ko ang pageensayo namin.

Gusto ko lang din talaga lumayo, ayoko malaman ng sinoman, kahit pamilya ko ang tungkol sa dala-dala kong ito.

I sighed as I entered the classroom for summer school. The students didn't bother to look at me for at least a moment. Everyone was talking with each other in groups. I'm used to this.

I grabbed my headphones from my bag to drown out the noise. I didn't talk to anyone until dismissal

It was a cycle for days.

    "Miss, are you okay? We're sorry," tinulungan ako ng isang lalaki para tumayo.

Natumba 'yung sinasakyan nilang motor at nabangga ako, buti at hindi gano'n kalakas.

Tumayo ako at tiniis ang naramdamang sakit sa beywang. For sure hindi 'yun sa akin, sa isang lalaking inaayos ang motor, dahil hawak-hawak niya ang beywang niya.

Freeze!

    "We're really sorry miss, nawala mis balance, if dili nimo kaya adto ta sa ospital," aya nung lalaking tumulong sa'kin.

    "I'm okay, gasgas lang ito," pagsagot ko sa kaniya.

    "Bro, Filipino, I'm damn!" he asked for help.

    "I can speak English and understand bisaya a little, it's okay, you don't have to worry." I meddle.

Nagulat siya at lumiwanag ang mga mata, natutuwang hindi niya na kailangan magfilipino.

    "By the way I'm Lyall, and he's Eiran," tinuro niya ang kasamahan niyang problemado parin sa motor.

    "Problemado lang siya ngayon kasi tinakas niya lang ang motor," tumawa siya ng kaunti.

    "I'm Sonomi, nice to meet you, bye!" Tinalikuran ko sila at naglakad palayo, iniinda parin ang sakit ng beywang.