There's a lotttttt of time skips 😓😓😓
Sooooo
It's been a while guys
It's the next year...............
THE WEDDING IS IN 2 MONTHS EVERYBODY RELAX
I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO SLEEP
I EVEN GOT A HUMIDIFIER
OKAY ANYWAYS
uhm guys....
I made a new friend
🥺
You guys loooveee me thooo
And it's
Jungkook.
LISTEN
NO LISTEN
HES BEEN HELPING OUT A LOT
AND
HES TAKEN
QUEERBAITING
AT ITS FINEST
HE HAS A GF
PLUS MY KIDS ARE HIS FRIEND TOO SOOOOOO
I WOULD NEVER PUT MY CHILDREN IN DANGEROUS SITUATIONS
He's growing on Nj but it's okay
I kinda like his jealous side-
ALRIGHT ALRIGHT
Sooooo currently I'm out with Jk's gf,,Lillian.
She has a cute name
It's like a flower,,like lilies
Anyways because of that we're shopping for my center pieces,,and just flower decor in general.
I love flowers; their pretty just like me.
I'm choosing narcissus, their white and yellow and most importantly prettyyyyy
My other choice is Aster,, they're like purple daisies.
I'll also be throwing in some white roses and lilies
The reason for the first 2 is because their our birth flowers 🙈
Just wanted to make sure you caught on to that 😁
"What vases have you picked out?" Lilian asked.
"Hmmm should we go big orrr-"
"Big is always better" she said before continuing with
"That's what she said 😆 God I embarrass myself sometimes."
"Mmmmmmmkay..." I said while putting all of the big vases into the cart she was pushing.
Alsooooo while us girls are shopping for flowers, the guys are shopping for suits and boy stuff
Oh! Did I forget to mention Jimin is with us. I probably did...welp he's here
"Jiiiinnnn" it spoke
"What now?" I said
"When are gonna get our outfits??"
"Once they're done. We're getting flowers and then going to the shop next door to get Lilian's outfit first"
"Ohhhhkay" he sighed and walked away
He's been so down lately...I'll ask about it later
—————
We are now next door. I set an order for 2,000 flowers 😍
We're famous sorry about it 🙄
Lilian was shopping while me and Jimin were sitting down waiting for her
"Min"
"Yeas?"
"You okay? You've been off"
"I'm fine.."
"Uhm no...tell me"
It took him awhile to speak again. I should've done this sooner
"Well...I don't want you to feel pitiful towards me,,like I loveeeeeeee all this wedding stuff but..........."
I waited for him to continue
"Hobi doesn't want to-"
His voice cracked
"It's okay" I said while pulling him into my embrace.
"Calm down"
Jimin tends to have panic attacks quickly.
That goes for any emotion.
I patted his hair and soothed his back.
"Breath.."
I felt him calm down.
"Do you want to tell me more?" I asked
I felt him nod
"He doesn't want to marry me and every time I ask why, he never answers....we're completely fine but. I don't want to stay with him if he doesn't—-ugh this is selfish."
"I don't care. It's not like he's here" I reassured.
"I don't want to be with someone who doesn't see a future with me— even tho he does but without marriage being in the picture. I don't like it. I've always dreamed of being married. I don't want to stop my dreams for his no reason beliefs- I don't even know what he believes."
He was crying now. But not to the point of him hyperventilating.
I was being a mother the entire time.
