Oblivious

Fear is the greatest motivator just ask my mother.

I stared straight into my own blue eyes, my brown hair had been brushed down to behind my ears and although its not like I have girl long hair it still reached the lower part of my neck and had clearly been brushed to look feminine. In my ears are two little silver earrings, sparkling slightly probably a little diamond in them. My lips looked plumper then I've ever seen them. My face was weirdly clean, my face was so clear and clean it did wonders for my complexion, and I never realized how attractive I could be considered too others before, if I put in effort. (Of course not this kind of effort though)

I had absolutely no hair on my face, not like I could grow much anyway but I did have odd hairs here and there not even 24 hours ago. Working my way down the necklace my grandma gave me rested in front of a baby blue hoodie, I had on sweatpants that hugged my legs and butt, something I'm not used to when wearing sweatpants.

And my reaction to what I saw?

Break down in tears.

God what is wrong with me. I've definitely spent enough time crying during the last two days that if asked what I did today I could honestly list crying as a notable event.

I tried to speak while choking on my tears.
Sounding something like

Mwaum wh-wh-you make me look like a g-g-girl

"Owen settle down I've done no such thing. You needed some new clothes, they may look unfamiliar but trust me they are from the boys section.

These! Are not boys clothes, and Pinching my ears I screamed "these are the gayest things I've ever seen, take them out right now!!

I'll save you the details of my spanking, let's just say she seems to be trying to make sure it is worse each time.

"I'll do no such thing little boy" you will wear what I dress you in, I will bath you how I like and you will do everything I tell you to do. Do I make myself clear? Your dad will be home in 4 days owen, I suggest you start behaving or it'll become clear to me that the way I've been spanking you has not been effective at teaching you to obey, then I will have to ask your father to.

I quickly screamed no no no I'll be good mom I promise. My dad is built like a brick wall, sturdy as hell 6,6 and built like he'd make even John cena gulp. I can not imagine the pain associated with a spanking from my dad and fear of such, genuinely did instantly motivate me to just bite my tongue and let this crazy bitch have her way.

Next time will be the first time jump. Just 3 days. (1day before Owen's dad gets home)