The Beauty of Love

Chapter 5

Our relationship became more complicated as the weeks passed by. There were times when we were okay and times when we were not. We were both busy all the time. Me with managing the café and Andrei with his projects.

We sometimes see each other to go out on dates, but I was the one who initiated it every single time.

Throughout our entire relationship, I was used to Andrei being the one to initiate dates. But now... if I don't suggest it, he won't make plans to see me.

In the past weeks, I've often felt neglected and unappreciated by him. Yes, we talk all the time. Mostly through calls, but I noticed that his responses were always short and dry.

I'm not numb. I can sense that something is different about him, but I'm scared to address it. I'm afraid to point it out because I don't want to lose him.

There are times when I can feel his irritation towards me, especially when I demand for quality time. He wasn't like that before. It's so unusual for him to suddenly act cold and make me feel unwanted.

I feel like he doesn't want to see me anymore. But then again, I always try to look on the brighter side. I was just thinking that he must be stressed with his projects, and that's why he's acting strange.

When I try to talk to him and ask if there's a problem or if something is bothering him, he gets irritated and leaves me hanging. Many times over the past weeks, I haven't been able to stop feeling hurt because it seems like he's fed up with me.

I want to ask him many things, but I'm afraid of the answers I might receive. I tried to reach out to him and asked if he has any problems with work or if it's about his family, but he doesn't want to share them with me.

Before, he couldn't resist when I was quiet and disappointed with his actions. He would always end up apologizing because he didn't want us to go to sleep still fighting and me being upset with him. But now... he can.

Even though he sees my reaction when I'm hurt by his sudden attitude, he doesn't bother to hold me and say sorry without me having to say anything. I also noticed that his sweetness is slowly fading away.

When I tell him I miss him, he responds by saying we just saw each other the other day. When I tell him I love him, he often decides to end the call or FaceTime. There are moments when he makes me feel like I don't have any value to him anymore.

For example, when I tried not talking to him for a day. I was hoping he would message me or even call to ask if I'm okay, but I ended up waiting for nothing.

Today, he's not as clingy anymore. Before, he loved holding me tight as if he didn't want to lose me. Something has really changed.

Sometimes, we even argue about small things because he doesn't like my opinion and his ego can't accept it. Back then, he always made me feel heard and accepted whatever was on my mind.

I may be busy with work but when I go home, I cry out my feelings and frustrations about our situation. I don't know why we are like this now. I can't think of anything I've done wrong to make him treat me this way.

At work, my staff always notice me zoning out while thinking about Andrei. This isn't him. He is not the Andrei who loves me so much that he was dying to see me every day, even though his schedule was jam-packed. He never wanted to make me feel unworthy or see me crying.

But now he does.

I'm so stressed thinking that maybe he's really fed up with me. I also keep thinking that he's probably losing his feelings for me. In the six years we've been together, it's only this year that he's been like this. He has changed so much that I barely recognize him now.