Dear Haley; Love, Haley Vol. 3

I have to be honest, people only like talking about themselves

Dear Haley

I have to be honest, people only like talking about themselves. I know this because I talk about myself. I love talking about myself, and I love looking at myself. I even post myself and just view myself and watch me. I really love looking at me. But here's the thing. If I ask you to be critical, I refuse to hear negativity. You sound insane and judgmental to the point its hate and self-projection. IF I am asking for your advice, it is not so I can torment my being, but to understand improvement. 

I didn't come here to hear people ramble about their personal problems, I am not your maid or your servant. And to be frank, I don't even know you to have concern about your problems. Like what am going to do? Tell you how to do your job, or judge you for doing your job? I don't want to hurt anyone based off my personal concern. I care about people and their ways. I'm just not interested in slander, hate, misconduct, misinformed people, or even any kind of social anxiety hate.

I am here for a reason and that reason is to be me. If you don't like me, cool. If you hate me, okay. But if you are going to use me to tell me what you think about me, leave me alone. I do not have concern for you. Simply because I'm right and there is nothing you can do about it. What are you going to do? Tell me I'm wrong? I don't know you. Literally and genuinely. But none of this means that I do not care, because I do. I do care, and I care about you. I care about you to the point that I am simply telling you that you are not my problem, nor my concern.

I will always help people in many ways. I will give you light, and I will give your life. Even Spirit knows, that is why he's chill with me. I am vibing on my own timing, and I don't need your judgement. Yes, if someone does try me, I am proud to say that YOU WILL GET TRIED. And this is where I do not care as much about who I am talking to because NONE OF Y'ALL ARE ME. Who is going to defend me? Who is going to help me when I am in need? Who is going to be here for me through thick and thin. I would hope my husband, but even I can't trust him to be there for me 24/7. He's not even my dad, or my friend. He is my partner, and he is by my side.

Some of y'all can say that this is crazy, or whatever whatever, but I am telling you the truth. I don't need him when it comes to defending me because I am going to be the one who is going to take me to the grave. If I am the one being persecuted and if anyone tries me, there's no going back. You may as well be guilty, and I will tell you why. I don't want to cause problems, stir up controversy that is wrong and foul play, and I don't want to be a part of your life if you are not for me. I don't want to get you, and I don't want to be around you. I may not even like you, but if you're going to play with me, just know you will get played because I don't play. Never will, never have. I like games, but I'm the dealer, not the shuffler or the executer. Call me what you want, I know stank fish when I see one.

Anyways, I love writing, this is far more therapeutic than heavy music. I needed to get this out of me. Music is so amazing, don't get me wrong. But when I feel off, I can't turn on until I fix my issues. I'm not even mad about it, but there have been moments in the past where I didn't know where to start. Like how do I resolve an issue? Sometimes its writing, other times its sleep. It could really be me doing me until I bleed, but you know how that goes.  I just need to heal and reboot. Sometimes it takes practice, but I believe this is what makes life more exciting. Like what does this even mean to me????

It is so good and so pleasuring; I've never found someone so satisfying in my entire life. I could go into detail, but to spare the eyes of my unsolicited audience, let's just say it's my desire to be in love with me. And I mean completely.

Any who, I hope everyone is having an amazing day. I really want to do a two-part episode today while doing my hair and makeup. I want to talk, vibe, and chill. I'm just in the mood to release my happiness. How do I release my happiness in a confident, pleasing way? relax, breathe, and enjoy the moment.

I really want to clean, but I am not in the mood. I am feeling tired, but extremely erratic. Like I could go crazy without doing anything. But I will do as I please because I know I will succeed. I love all of you, truly; and not another day goes by without tell you all the words, I love you.

I do care about y'all truly, and I want the best for everyone, especially when I am feeling this grand about myself. Everyone deserves to feel this way. So, from now on and forward, I won't have beef with anyone and anybody. Everyone matters to me, and I love all of you. Thank you.

Love,

Haley