Okay so, this is something I've ALWAYS wondered, ever since I was a kid, but when I ask ppl irl...they just look at me weird
But anyways, I got the basic aroace girl experience growing up, every other girl has a crush on boys, you don't, so you pick one and pretend...but I've always wondered, 1. What does a "real" crush feel like, and 2. What makes a crush, a "real" crush? Is it the way you feel?.. how you act about that person? I don't know
But anyways- im asking this because, my irl bestie, for years (even before I found out I was aroace) always made jokes about me...uhhhh...banging my celeb/fictional crushes...which isn't something I wanna do, nor did I even know ppl wanted to do that (at that time, I have learned quite the opposite...the hard way...) but- since I've never rlly imagined myself in a relationship with my celeb/fictional crushes, does that not make them a crush? Like yeah I make jokes about marrying my crushes, but I wouldn't ACTUALLY do that, it just feels...icky...like I try and imagine what it'd be like to be married/in a relationship, but its not something i like? Its not something im into?.. its not something I wanna do-
I don't even know if ANY of that makes sense-
