In a Glance

That missing piece

"Those pretty eyes I loved had shed the most tears for me."

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I tripped myself when I stepped backward but he still caught me. Why does he have to keep on catching me every time I fall. It makes it more harder for me. I removed myself from him and stood a meter away. He's still looking at me, the same way before..

I remember now clearly all the times we go out on dates, when we first met, where we celebrated our 100th day, everything, even our small fights, childish tantrums, those time he serenaded, courted and charmed me and made me fall for him, love him. But I hated him to core when he left me. Broke up with me and just like that we changed.

But now, it makes things so complicated now that I remember that pieces of the puzzle that was hidden in the depths of my mind.

'Aly?' he said. I just stared at him

I raised my hand as a sign for him not to come any closer. I was hyperventilating. Panic arises from the pits of my stomach and at that I run through the rain. I can hear him calling my name and following me. But I ran faster. Tears fall with the rain.

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It was the day that he became my boyfriend officially. My parents approved of him and even my friends. I was on my way to meet him when these hard headaches I've been experiencing very often triggered again. I took a pain killer but it just lessened the pain. I cancelled our date and just stayed home.

Night came and my head is still pounding. I asked my parents to take me to the hospital. It hurts badly that it's not just like a hammer is pounding continuously in my head but a concrete breaker pounder like hurt. I'm crying and I wanted to scream that it hurts terribly. Then all I can recall is a syringe, a nurse, and my beating heart.

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Awakened by the morning sun, my mother smiles at me while I try to sit up. She hands me a glass of water and I gulped it down fast. My voice was hoarse when I speak. I asked my mother what happened, and am I sick or what? She sat next to me and cupped my hands in her.

'Honey, have you been forgetting stuffs recently?' she was looking serious and really concerned. I racked my brain for any instances and it hit me like a lightning ball. I've been a little forgetful of stuffs or happenings that happened days or just hours ago. I nodded in reply.

'Do you want them to know?' my mother said. I'm confused. Them? Everyone? My friends? Relatives? Strangers? Rhon? Of course they should know right?

'Why? Is it that bad mom, for them to know? Am I having a serious disease? Or is it like that sickness that cause you to forget things and continue forgetting? Please tell me.' I'm fighting back the tears now. I wanted to be strong for myself.

'Its not that serious honey, we can still get it cured. But..you're only gonna rememeber certain things after the medication.' my mother is crying and hugging me now.

Yes, I've been forgetting a lot of stuffs lately but maybe I just lack the vitamin for it. Right? Then the doctor came and he told me that I have that rare disease in my brain wherein I forget fragments of a memory, it is like a mild amnesia but will be serious if not treated early with medication at first.

I agreed to take medications first. Then we went home. I lay in bed thinking what would happen to me now. I keep on racking my brain for instances that I had forgotten about something then I had forgotten about it so I cant recall it. Then Rhon came into my mind, I'm doomed. I don't remember most of the things that he did. A conversation I keep on replaying on my mind, gone. I know that he have done a lot of sweet things but my brain can't show me a picture of that event kr happening.