Hawk / Eli Imagines

I shouldn't have let you go - Hawk

I am beyond miserable, I am just angry all the time and the one good thing in my life, I just threw away. Everyday I see Y/n, my Y/n, with some dude, and she's laughing and smiling. How can she smile even remotely similar to how she smiled at me, at someone else. I'm missing her, badly, why did I break up with her?

Flashback:

I woke up to my arms wrapped around my love, my Y/n, she was staring at me and when she saw my eyes open she smiled. "Good morning," I gave her a sweet kiss on the lips. "You're affectionate this morning," she giggled and tried to sit up but I held her tightly, "Hawk, we have to get to the dojo," she dragged out my name. I smirked, "We don't have to be there for an hour or two," She rolled her eyes, "and before you say you need to make yourself look beautiful, you already are." She smiled and suddenly began kissing my neck, I closed my eyes and sighed happily. With my guard down she got up from the bed and found her bra and underwear and put them on. "Hey!" I get up and wrap my arms around her waist from behind. "You know neck kisses aren't fair," she giggled. "I don't remember you complaining about it last night," she escaped my grapsed and put her dress on, "now get dressed mister, sensei will kick our asses if we are late," she left my room giving me a wink before she left. She's amazing.

End of Flashback.

I walked into my home and I walked up to my room and cried. Cried forever, contemplating texting, calling, just viewing her Instagram profile again. I calmed myself then went on her Instagram and saw that her profile pic was her, in a white Gi with Sam and Demetri. I missed Demetri too but Y/n is my rock and I am crumbling. I looked at her most recent post, it was Y/n with an ice cream with him with it captioned, 'he got us a treat, he is sweeter than the ice cream' I went off of it and quickly went to our messages, the last one being sent was the day that she asked me to meet up with her in person, we were having a lot of problems and that night was when it erupted and we were over.

Me: Hey, I know this is probably the last person you'd expect to text you, but I've been thinking and I was such a mess when I broke up with you, you are the best person in the world and I feel like such an idiot for even thinking about ending it. I hope he makes you happy... happier than I did. But if he doesn't and you have any love left for me, then I'll be waiting.

This is number 47 of the amount of essays I've started to write then pussied out of sending. I threw my phone on my bed and groaned out of frustration.

Flashback:

"Hey, I'm new, my names Y/n, this is my brother Miguel," I started at her in awe, she is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. "I'm Demetri, this is Eli and you shouldn't sit with us," he gestured to Y/n. "Why not?" "Because you are too pretty to sit with us," I mumble making her blush, she blushed at my comment!?!?! She sat next to me and gave me a kiss on the cheek, "I think I'll be okay here," she kept glancing at me all lunch and I knew in that moment that I wanted to be with her.

End of Flashback.

The next day at school I got to my breaking point and I went to our special spot to cry and remember us. Once I got to our secret room in the library and she was already there, sobbing in the corner, "Y/n?" I startled her and she flinched away, this made the book that was in her lap fall out of it, it slid across the floor. It was the photo album she made for me that I threw at her when we broke up. "You okay?" I whispered while moving closer, she finally looked at me, "why would you do that to me?" "Do what?" She held up her phone and it was the message from last night, it was sent to her I started to cry. "I didn't mean to press send, I swear." She wiped her tears away with her hand, "I had finally started to moved on, finally feeling something resembling happiness and you go and just-" I gave her a tight hug, she hesitated for a few seconds then broke down in my arms. "I know, I know, I am so sorry," I whispered, "I never should have broken up with you," she looked up at me and sniffled. "Now you tell me," we laughed and cried at the same time, "I broke up with him this morning, It wasn't fair, he deserves someone who only loves him." She broke the hug, I was in shock. "But you two looked so happy," She shook her head. "Most of it was an act, you always seemed so tough and over it, I just wanted to be too," I shook my head. "We've both been wearing masks," I stated and she nodded. We glanced at each other and in that moment I knew that I will never let her go ever again.