A Silent Observer (Deku Angst)

The hope I needed

Izuku's pov

The next day I woke up still on the couch. I felt like shit. I slowly made my way into my room and grabbed a fresh notebook. I opened it and just started to jote things down. My brain slowly came back to what eraserhead told me. Dangerous but possible...but what if it wasn't I mean he still had a quirk and I didn't so if something did go wrong I didn't have something to help me out. The notes became scribbling and doodling. Was it worth it? I looked at my clock and cringed. The clock was Allmight theme. Like most things in my room.

7:40...I might as well skip today...I mean I really didn't feel like going. I felt sick. Sick by the fact that I blindly believed I could be a hero. That I blindly followed such a shit hero...I suddenly got up and tore one of the Allmight posters without thinking. I took a second looking at the poster bits in my hand. It felt good. Once by one I slowly began destroying most the Allmight stuff. The stuff I knew was very expensive I put in a box. I had an idea to do with the box later.
My room was an absolute mess. I just sat on my bed and exhaled.

With nothing better to do I decided to look at the group chat.
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Midnight: Sho sho sho!

Eraser: what?

Midnight: Hi

Eraser: -_-

Mic: Pfft good one nem.

Since when did they use their real names? I wondered to myself but decided overall not to question it or anything.

Midnight: but for real what happened with your patrol yesterday, when you got back to UA you seemed out of it

Mic: Actually! I'm wondering that too!!!!

Eraser: *sigh*

Midnight: cringe

Eraser: nothing really just met an interesting Grenette.

Allmight is online

Allmight: I am here! Also what a coincidence same!

Eraser: oh great I got something in common with a rock.

Mic: Sho! That's not nice

Allmight: It's quite alright Yamada! Wanna hear more about it?

Eraser: why do I feel like you'll tell us anyways.

Midnight+Mic: ^
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"Wha-" I couldn't help mutter out. He better not. That was a private discussion. Would he really say what a 14yr old asked with confidence and make fun of it?
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Allmight: Ah...Well the poor green haired boy was quirkless! He asked me if he could be a hero without a quirk. Hahaha. Funny aye?

Eraser:...

Mic: Sho?

Eraser: And what did you tell him?

Allmight: well to be realistic and to find something else to do.

Mic: um shota is gripping his phone very tightly.

Eraser: By chance did you kinda just leave him on a rooftop?

Allmight: Oh how did you know?

Eraser went offline

Mic went offline

Midnight: why do I feel like you fucked up?

Allmight: Fuck

Allmight went offline

Midnight went offline

0 people online
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I just stared at chat. What the actual fuck. But it seemed like Eraserhead put two and two together but why didn't he tell the others? Heh I guess he has more decency than Allmight.

I looked back at the chat when another notification came up.
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Hound dog is online

13 is online

Power loader is online

Hound dog: Why is Allmight texting me about needing therapy?

13: scroll up the msgs says it all

Hound dog: Poor kid.

Power loader: Who says that to someone? I mean hey at least send them in the direction of being a support hero...

Hound dog: You just want another person in your class

13: why am I not surprised

Power loader: but by eraser's reaction I'm guessing that they met the same greennette

13: wow I never knew you actually had good ideas

Hound dog: ^

Power loader: I have bunch of great ideas!

13: like destroying your classroom every week?

Power loader: •>•

13 changed Power loader's name to Bombs

Bombs: you know what- can't deny it

Hound dog: ...I'm going back to work
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I chuckled at the messages. These guys could be funny. But I somewhat wondered why not many of them were online. Of right it's a school day.

I slowly got up and walked to my mom's room. Once there knocked on the door. No answer. Did she not come home last night? I guess I don't have to explain why I didn't go to school then. Maybe this was my chance to- before I could finish that thought I shook my head no. I had to think about how sad Mom would be if I died. Though the idea was tempting either way.

I go to the fridge and opened it. There I saw the dinner from last night that I totally had forgotten about. I grabbed an apple though. I wasn't that hungry anyways. I slowly make my way to the couch and turn on a random cartoon. Not that I was paying much attention to it though. I was just using it for background noise. I scrolled through my phone till I got a text that made me freeze.
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Kacchan : Where are you?

Deku: Home, didn't feel well

Kaccan: Wimp, probably just making sure I can't get to you, don't worry whenever you do decide to show back up I'll make sure to give you one hell of a welcome back. Gift

Deku: really? Thanks Kaccan can't wait

Kacchan : are you dense or what?

Deku: no I just don't feel like arguing

Kacchan : Damn deku!!
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I was slowly getting annoyed by him. Yes he has a good quirk but at this point I don't think he is going to make a good hero at all. Why did I ever think he was so good...what am I saying? No Kaccan is great, the best....and my friend I can't think that way about him.