Whatever happens, you know you can count on yourself to get you up, to deal with things, even if it's hard for you to cope, you keep moving.
You get hurt by yourself, by creating fake scenarios, by overthinking, by thinking about the past, by thinking about the pain you have, by dreams and lavish expectations.
You question yourself more than two times if it's a good idea to open up, or it's going to be used against you, or affect in any kind of ways your partner.
You fear mostly that he might be tired of you and the situations related to you. Even after questioning yourself, you go for it impulsively.
Perhaps crazy and true, I've been in a process of transformation, getting bumps from past trauma, suffering in silence, pushing away everyone, unintentionally making mistakes, building walls to protect the mighty, innocent and fragile heart, creating barriers against any kind of feeling that might hurt, not letting anyone or any feeling get through.
This was difficult to build up, I tried hard. Dealing with breakdowns every day, hardens the heart and strengthens the mind.
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Weird Inspirations
Short StoryThe content contains short paragraphs which I wrote over years on the different feelings and experience of life I had and inspirations out of nowhere.
