Demons can love? (HakuKoyu/Akakoyu story.)

You are just.. familiar

Akaza POV:

It was raining again tonight, but not storming like yesterday. It was a calm, comforting kind of rain which I never thought I'd say but I'm at a kind of peace right now.

Ever since me and Kiyaka had that strange connection, I've been smiling all day and getting giddy feelings. Yuck. I hated feeling happy since I never really am. Happiness became unfamiliar the instant I became a demon, maybe even before.

I'd always hated happiness because I envied whoever felt it. I wanted that feeling again and now I don't know how to act that I've got it. All I know is that I don't want to lose it again and I'm pretty sure that means I can't lose Kiyaka.

I don't know how I've changed so much within only a few days. I've gone soft.

I walked outside on the porch, standing under the awning.

I stared at the rain trickling from the skin and listened as it hit the roof and splatted on the ground into puddles.

I'd never observed rain or anything this closely in a while but I'm appreciating it all so much more out of nowhere.

I don't really mind, it's a pleasant feeling. Everything has been since earlier with Kiyaka.

All I can think about is her and that interaction. It's making the night pass quickly and I can't help but feel like I should be productive but I'm too lost in thought to really act on it.

I stared at the moon, and the puddles, and the soft rain, and the gentle clouds. It was all so mesmerizing.

Kiyaka opened the door and joined me outside on the porch.

She looked up at me, analyzing me slightly like she could tell I was in thought.

"What are you thinking about?"

I took a deep breath and thought about that question. I don't believe I was thinking about anything.

"I don't know. My mind is rather clear right now.. what about you?"

She inhaled through her nose and exhaled out her mouth. She smiled gently as she looked out at the environment.

"I'm thinking about how amazing it was to meet you. It's.. well, I won't even say that because I don't think I can recall when I was last happy. So, I don't think I've ever been happy and I really appreciate you being able to make me feel this way."

I looked away from the sky and over at her. I didn't know how to respond. Her words hit me hard. Those were the nicest words I've ever heard. In no way could I express how much I appreciate everything she just said to me. I just stared at her, so many emotions welling up that I don't even feel like discarding anymore.

"Kiyaka.."

There were no words capable of telling her how I felt just then. But I didn't know if I was ready to even share that.

"Thank you. That means a lot."

I hated that was all I could say. I wanted to tell her everything but I don't know if I could and I'm not ready to see how she'd respond. That, and, I can't help but feel like it isn't right.

"Of course, I was just speaking my truth."

I just smiled at her and looked back out at the rain, feeling uncomfortable with the fact I didn't say all I felt. Yet, I also felt it was the right thing to do.

Kiyaka POV:

I couldn't help but feel like there was more to be said. Despite I had gotten a good amount of how I felt off my chest, I didn't tell him everything. I didn't even know all of what I was feeling to tell him.

Not only did I feel like I wasn't saying everything, I also felt like Akaza was holding back.

There was still silence between the two of us after that.

I felt a kind of embarrassment after. I had never confessed so much before and I just wish he trusted me with his feelings like how I did with him.

I don't blame him though.

(Time skip!)

The night flew by and the sun was rising. We stayed in the house the whole night. I did random things throughout the house before I decided I wanted to go to sleep.

I looked at the bathroom, a thought crossing my mind. I haven't showered in a while. It wasn't normal at all for demons to but I'd always occasionally wash in creeks or things like that.

I smiled as I got the idea.

Akaza was on the couch, reading a book or trying to.

I hurried past him and into the bedroom. He looked at me confused but didn't say anything.

I ran into the bedroom and quickly scanned through the closet. I scanned through yukatas and kimonos, looking for one that would fit me.

I found a whole section of pretty kimonos and decided which one I liked to wear at the time.

There was a bright purple kimono with pretty tsubaki flowers.

I snatched it off the hanger and rushed to the bathroom. I could hear a small chuckle from Akaza as I ran in.

I found soap and hair wash in a cabinet and set it out for me to shower, as well as a towel.

I somehow remembered how to get the shower on and turned it on immediately. The shower was warm on my skin. The steam filled the room. It felt nice, I really should've done this sooner.

(Small time skip!)

I dressed in the kimono, tossing my old one in a trashcan I found in the bathroom.

As I got the kimono on I sighed while looking at myself in the mirror, trying to find some kind of confidence.

I never really worry about my appearance, but something is making me rather insecure. Was it just that I haven't showered in forever and the change makes me feel weird? I wasn't so sure.

My wet hair also looked strange to me, but I ignored it. I left the bathroom, the steam following me out.

I smiled at Akaza as I left.

He smiled back, a slightly shocked expression on his face.

"Is something wrong?"

He shook his head.

"No, not at all. You are just.. familiar."

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Hey gang! I'm so silly so I got two chapters in today. I'm plotting currently and I may end the fic in the next chapter, mwehehehe. I might write one shots after this since I kept stopping and starting back up so much. Lmk if I should!!! Bye loves 🫶