CALIFORNIA DREAMS

SUMMER JEALOUSY

This chapter is really long but it has everything in it! Also tons of jealous conrad.
CONRAD
When i dropped belly off at the airport, i cried the second i could no longer see her. Seeing how broken she was, made me question if i was doing the right thing.

The first few days after belly left, i was so out of sorts. I didnt do anything, but stay at home, and wallow about how much i missed her. How much my heart aches for her. Especially since shes mad, and hurt, and its my fault. At least tomorrow, the med conference starts. Ive already packed for that, and agnes and i are driving up together.

Were staying in completely different hotels. I have to be more careful now that bellys starting to feel threatened some. I dont mean to chose agnes over belly, but i cant study in cousins. I wont get ANYTHING done there.

Its tuesday now, and so far the med conference is fucking fantastic. Agnes and i have been to so many workshops, and speakers. Tomorrow, were attending a seminar about tips and tricks to pass the mcat exam.

Agnes somehow talked me into going out to a bar for a couple drinks. It wasent so bad, we went with some other friends shes made at the conference. We all talked about what kind of doctors we want to be, or fields of study were going for. Belly still isent really talking to me though, which pains me deep down. I need my isabel, like the earth needs the sun. Without it, i shrivel up, and die. Whats even worse, i did this to myself.

On wednesday, belly texted me for a little while, which i was suprised about, but soaked in every message she sent me. I wrote down nearly every word at the mcat seminar, which was a lot. My journal of notes will be nice and filled, by the end of the week.

Thursday and friday went by in a blur, and before i knew it, agnes and i were back at our respective houses "isabel, im home" i instinctively called. Then i remembered my girls 3000 fucking miles away. Shes not here, to run and greet me, with a hundred hugs and kisses. Although there is one plus side to her being gone....

I get in my car, and drive to the gas station, where i buy a pack of cigarettes, and i light one as soon as i get into the car. "Smoking kills remember thats what youd always say" bellys voice echos in my head.

"Fuck!" i curse, as i throw the cigarette out the window. I end up settling for beer instead. I am a hot mess express without belly. Everythings black and white when shes gone, theres nobody around to pull me out of my head.

Its the afternoon, when jeremiah calls me, i answer maybe a little too eagerly "hey jere, its good to here from you" i tell him happy.

He laughs before replying, "you are dying without belly arent you. She isent much better you know. Although weve been able to get her out of the house. Shes really taking a liking to ethan, my new friend. Youd love him con, hes just like you" jeremiahs voice beams.

Ethan? Ethan sounds like a guys name. And my isabel has been hanging out with him. I instantly get jealous, protective, and angry. My first instinct, is to hop on a plane, and make damn sure, this guy fucking knows the lengths i will go to protect my girl. I feel hurt too. Why didnt belly tell me about him? About how they hang out at bonfires, and she talks to him all the time when hes around.

"Dude you good, you havent spoken in 30 seconds," jeremiah snaps me back to reality. For once, i tell my brother what im thinking. "Con, belly has loved you her whole life. She would never. Ethan just helps her miss you less. I mean they even talk about space, although i will say he looks at her the way you do, and well she...."jeremiah trails off, probably regretting ever speaking.

They talk about space. Fuck. I swear if she told him about infinity. I will wreck havoc.

My jealousy gets even worse, "and she what jere. Tell me" my tone is firm, but calm.