To My Ex Friends

«Therapist «

Eleanor and I were without a doubt each other's personal therapists. That mentality is a bad way of thinking if it goes too far. I would vent to her and she would vent to me. I will admit that I vented to her more than she vented to me.

I took a screenshot of an Instagram story she uploaded in 2019. I was at my step dad's families house celebrating Christmas. She wrote "Here is a random paragraph for u to read as an experiment if the text "classic" gets bigger and shrinks as u type, so here we go. Enjoy random.
Im cleaning my room and want to go to dead man's cave with my friends for the get together. My friend, Brooklyn, may or may not be coming and i cry all day. I went shopping and got new jewelry today as well. Im listening to "teenage dream", does this make me a teenager? Im so sad my friend cant be at my party, katie, im rlly sad. I feel like this get together will only consist of like, 2 ppl, Tammy and Morgan, but I dont mind. Maybe Morgan can bring her sister too. This is so random and im just typing anything that comes to mind.
I want to go insane and just climb up ceilings like our lord and savior, buffy. Rosie is shy, but buffy ends up breaking her in the second book and messes up her mortality. Did u know publishing books can cost up to 2000 dollars? I didnt.

We finished the dining room and it looks great. I have a diary and I havent written in months, help.

Pancakes? "

I changed the names of her oc's (original characters) in the paragraph. Buffy is one of her Halloween furry art oc's names whose birthday is October 31st. Vise versa, she has a Christmas oc named Angel. Rosie is another oc. She has gotten ideas for some of her art inspiration from Animal Jam roleplays that took place at her den.

We both got positive COVID tests in July 2021. I got it from a church camp.

Eleanor emphazied her experience with COVID on her Instagram story, "My mother wants to take me to get tested for c0vid tomorrow, even after EVERYTHING she has preached this past year!

Omfg!

I don't want wanna get tested!

It's just a common cold rn!

I have a runny nose

Sore throat

Cough

Sneezies

Sleepies

THATS LITERALLY A COLD!!!

All you gotta do is slap the word C0vid on there and u are suddenly a bigger threat than u really are!

People are so BRAINWASHED!

I know I work in the food industry, that's whats the problem. I shouldn't go to work, I know, but I'm NOT QUARANTINING MYSELF FOR 14 DAYS JUST BC I HAVE A FUCKING COLD!!! My God! I already KNOW it is going to come back positive, SO WHY GO???

The system is literally that if you share ANY symptoms of c0vid, then u automatically are positive."

Ugh, I'm not fucking going! I'm not going to stay home for 2 WEEKS AND WASTE THE LAST DAYS OF SUMMER!

Sorry, I'm just FURIOUS at this shit! Lemme just sit in my calm, cozy, relaxing room, and draw furries, comms, and make fox noises until I get better!

UGH!"

Our friendship in 2020 to 2021 was a different time. She did exaggerate some things. So did I!

My brother has ADHD. I would clash with him plenty of times. My dad moved up to my state when he was retired from the Navy in 2016. I would have a hard time in 8th grade adjusting to every other week at my dads. My brother was able to push my buttons.

When I was mad, oh, I was fired up! I would write out a message stating why I was upset. I would have a numerous amount of brother stories. It was a release of emotions. It was my way to process the argument.
Eventually, Eleanor would respond but by the time she would respond I wouldn't be upset anymore. I just felt good releasing it. I would also tell my Mom. I felt more normal telling a girl around my age.

We talked over Instagram messages. Texts can get taken out of context. I would view some things as funny rather then me being upset which is where the issue of being taken out of context occurred. I thought it was funny how my step brother got his first kiss before me. I thought it was funny how my siblings are able to get away with so much.

She was someone I knew I needed to lean on. Up until 8th grade I would act out scenes in my head with my LEGO characters. I still play with my LEGO characters but not as much as I normally used to. I did not believe I had any true friends to rely on.

In October 2020 my dog was given back to the shelter because she bit my brothers best friend. I was hurt that we had to give her away on Halloween in 2020. She bit my brother in the face on Mother's Day 2020. We kept her and our hearts grew with more love for Abbey. 2020 was one of the worst years because we didn't have her in our family anymore. She was adopted on December 13, 2020. When we gave her back to the shelter there were people there who knew her in 2018. We adopted Abbey December 16, 2018. Her name before we named her Abbey was Strawberry Shortcake. They switched her name back to the original name. I sent Eleanor a photo of the adoption post hoping she would adopt her. We could not keep her so my mind went to my friend. They were not able to adopt Abbey. I spent that night we gave her away with Eleanor. Eleanor bought me a pint of my favorite ice cream which is chocolate chip cookie dough. It helped to cheer me up making that Halloween better.