To My Ex Friends

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I had thoughts that the friendship between Eleanor and I was not going to be a long term one in 2022. It was the year I turned 18.

For her Junior and Senior year, she transferred to a trade school. She was at that school to pursue her studies for her career in Art. Willow also attended the same trade school. We would usually communicate by text as we were not able to visit each other in school.

I graduated High School in 2021 because I had all the credits. I went to my Senior prom in 2022 after I graduated. I was not going to miss out on my Senior prom. I went to an official graduation to recieve my diploma in 2022.

I started my second job in January 2022. My first job was at a Winter Ski and Snow Tubing resort. My second job was by far my favorite one so far. I loved my boss! My co-worker, Bianca, was in her 50s. The teenagers around my age would not like doing the extra work on the enhanced living dining space side. Bianca would hold us to standards of cleanliness. I enjoyed working with Bianca. There was a server, Tyler, who worked on the independent living side. My first impression of him was that he was attractive. Any guy that is sweet to seniors is my kind of guy! His birthday is a week apart from mine. It was a great job to save up money for college.

The last time I felt I enjoyed spending time with Eleanor was in June 2022. We went with Willow to play Bowling. It was National Best Friends Day. Willow won two games and I won one. Eleanor did not win any of the 3 games we played. It was the last hurrah.

I didn't talk to her as much about my issues in the way she would perceive them. I would reach out to her thinking something's funny but she would interpret it as me being depressed. I observed that she was not noticing my progress. That would make me feel upset. Eleanor had the wrong mindset attached to me. She shared a TikTok video to her Instagram story and said I was the one with crippling depression. That is when I started to doubt if her friendship was for me.

My brother and I got along so much better once I turned 18. I had problems with my parents divorce affecting me. It didn't affect me when I started to mature into adulthood. I got to make my own decisions about when I would see my parents. I still see my mom and my dad. I didn't feel that there was as much control over me. It felt as if a huge weight lifted off of my chest.

The brother situation that started to come up was how my 14 year old step brother got his first kiss before me. Another brother situation is that my brothers keep growing too fast! I did not find my brothers to be as annoying. I don't know all about his relationship details. The stuff I mentioned to Eleanor is that my Mom and Step Dad don't support the relationship as much as I do. I mentioned to Eleanor that I was supportive of my siblings to try to change the narrative. I did not want her to not like my siblings because of my past stories.

I invited her to my college dorm room around the time of her birthday. She was being too loud and annoying my roommates. I felt embarrassed.
I would consider inviting her places to try to ease the tension. I wanted to end the friendship.

January 6, 2023 was the last day I invited her over. I should start off by saying that in 2020 Eleanor and I started a joke that we were wives. I was okay with it for awhile that Eleanor said Brooklyn and I were her wives. She also said that this girl who is her neighbor, Blair, was her wife. Blair was 5 years younger than her.
When I turned 18 I was over the wife bit. I told Eleanor I did not have a desire to be her wife anymore. She would interpret the conversation as me joking. We met up in August 2022 at a carnival downtown. I could tell she wanted to leave sooner than she left. I was telling her she didn't need to stay with me that long.

That night I invited Eleanor to my mom's house. It was right before I was back at college. My Mom and Step Dad came home saying we should go and do something exciting. My mom didn't like Eleanor that much so she wanted us out.