Screaming (but no noise comes out)

Chapter 1

A/N: As per the title and summary, this story will be quite a heavy one, dealing with dark themes, mental health issues, alcoholism and potentially eating disorders too. Trigger warning will be applied at the start of each chapter as appropriate. I know Charlotte said Autumn was 10 weeks but on the Facebook page, I saw a comment on the video with Daisy estimating her to be 14-26 weeks for an autumn due date so went with that.

Trigger warning: vomiting, miscarriage, birth, bleeding

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"We're really doing this double date nonsense?" Reece asked.

"Given all that want is to make us happy, I think throwing them a bone is the least we can do" Autumn shrugged.

"I suppose we should consider ourselves lucky we have that we've got two people who wanna make us happy so badly" Reece conceded.

"It won't be that bad, as long as there's plenty of wine" Autumn looked away from her brother, not wanting to see him.

"Yeah, we should probably address that at some point" Reece said.

"Address what?" Autumn fixed her brother with a hard stare.

"Your rather unhealthy coping mechanism" Reece raised his eyebrows in concern. Autumn raised one eyebrow at her brother.

"Your love of the old glug glug" Reece continued.

"Would you rather I open up to you about my feelings?" Autumn asked.

Reece looked shocked. "Jesus no. I'll make sure Marjorie has wine, like on tap for you that night".

"Good" Autumn raised her eyebrows and sadly looked down, trying not to showcase her hurt. She hadn't drunk wine for a while, not since she found out she was pregnant. The fact that her brother would rather her drink wine, drown her feelings rather than opening up hurt. The gardener's apprentice walked in and started talking to Reece, allowing Autumn a few moments to gather herself. Outwardly, she never showed any feelings of hurt, instead bottling it all up inside which she knew was unhealthy, but she didn't know what else to do. Nobody had cared before and everyone always left, so Autumn felt it was better for her to keep it to herself.

The double date came and went, Autumn bringing non-alcoholic wine instead (it would've been too suspicious had she not turned up with any wine), which wasn't quite as bad as she expected, especially with Marjorie's sober dancing on the table. She figured nine months without wine would probably do her good. That was, until she had to reprimand Daisy for the peekaboo situation, and as Autumn glared at Marjorie until she left she felt something. Not the usual nausea, and she'd had mild implantation cramps but this was worse. Autumn frowned, grabbing her stomach. Something didn't feel right. The cramp made her feel nauseous, and Autumn ran towards the toilet behind Charlotte.

"Charlotte, move" Autumn grunted.

"Sorry Autumn" Charlotte murmured as the younger woman ran ahead to the toilet, Charlotte frowning as she left the door open. She'd guessed that Autumn was pregnant a few weeks back and could tell that she was having a hard time with morning sickness, almost too much of a hard time. Charlotte winced as she saw Autumn grab the toilet bowl, not even bothering to close the door before she was violently sick. Charlotte turned back briefly she wasn't in ratio so wasn't needed for a few more minutes, but on the other hand she wasn't sure how long Autumn would be in the bathroom for. It seemed as of late that Autumn was always in the bathroom. Charlotte turned back, going to the office to grab a cup and some tissues, she filled the cup with water and went back to the bathroom, leaving the cup by the sink.