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Chapter 9: Drip. Drip. Drip.

A/N TRIGGER WARNING THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS DEPRESSION, SELF HAR, ETC ETC. REMEMBER IF YOU ARE FACING A HARD TIME AND FEEL LIKE THIS YOU SHOULD SEE AN ADULT AND PLEASE REMEMBER THAT I LOVE YOU AND I'M SURE A LOT OF PEOPLE DO AS WELL)

*Colleen's POV*

"C.. Colleen I'm really, really sorry." Kory started.
"Just say the damn line, Kory!" A gruff voice spoke, Dev.
"Dev leave him alone." I screamed.
"Colleen I never want to see you ever again. Unless you break up with Josh." He said quickly.
"What? Kory. Why?" I cried.
"Colleen, Dev has me and Rachel now." I fell to the floor.
All i was thinking was that its all my fault that my sister and my best friend is being held hostage by a creep.
It's all my fault.
All my fault.
My fault.
Who's fault? Mine.
Ugh.
They don't deserve this. Maybe I should listen to what the hate comments say.
No one even cares about me now. Well I don't blame them. I mean they would've been living the perfect life if it wasn't for me.
maybe its better off if I die. Hmm maybe I'll just wait a while and see how much more I can handle first. Ah who am I kidding it's my fault that Kory and Rachel are suffering right now. I cant handle the fact that it's my fault.
I have a mini debate in my head about what I should do. I think right now i'll just ease the pain. A little. A lot.

I go in the bathroom.
The razor is at the sink and I grab it.
I look in the mirror and think about what the people where saying.
Fat.
Ugly.
Slut.
Hmm. Am I really doing this?
Yes.
I disassemble the razor.
I pull out the blade and roll up my sleeve.
And make a small, deep cut on my arm.
The steady drip. drip. drip. rhythm soothes me.
I make 5 more cuts till I decide I'm done for today.
Then I heard a knock on the door.
I cleaned up all the mess quickly before I opened the door.
"Baby, what are you doing in there?" Josh said, sounding concerned.
"Just cleaning." I'm not very good at lying but I think Josh believes me.
"Why did you lock the door?"
"Oh just a habit." I say. Trying not to act suspicious.
"You coming down to breakfast?' He smiled.
"Of course, Snoopy." I said in his ear and kissed his cheek.
We walked down the stairs holding hands.
"I love you, Colleen."He said, sighing.
"Do you?" I muttered.
"What did you say?" He asked.
"I said I love you too! Josh." I responded.
He stops me at the end of the stairs.
"Guess what I made for breakfast." He said, sounding very proud of himself.
"Hmm. Kale?" I asked.
"Kale Yeah! How did you guess?" He said.
I laughed.
"Shocker!" I managed to fake a smile. I think Josh is getting suspicious about the way I'm acting now. I hope he hasn't noticed.

*Josh's POV*
After this morning with all of the hate and the phone call from Kory, Colleen hasn't been acting herself. she didn't handle it very well. i woke up to her crying, then she fell to the ground crying from the call with Kory and I heard her crying in the bathroom. I hope she's alright.

This is not a great start to today.
We're doing a huge youtuber party today.
The first person that arrives is Lilly hugs both me and Colleen.
Then he asked where Rachel was. In my brain I did a huge face palm.
Colleen excused herself and ran off sobbing in her hands.
Lilly was confused.
"Did I do anything? Is she okay?"
"Um sorta and no, she isn't okay." I replied.
I explained everything that happened to Colleen and she understood.
"Oh, I'm sorry I didn't know." She said.
"It's okay she's just having a hard time dealing with a lot of things."
"I saw what happened on Twitter." She said.
"Me too. Lilly, please don't tell the others."
"Don't worry. I wont."She smiled and hugged me.

*Lilly's POV*
I went upstairs to Colleen. I saw her sobbing in the corridor and approached her.
"Hey, I'm sorry. I didn't know." I rubbed her back.
She looked up at me and I smiled.
"Lilly... I need to tell you a secret that you can't tell anyone. Not even Josh."
Must be a big secret then! I mean I thought she told him everything.
"Anything." I said.
"I.. I started sorta umm." She struggled with her words.
"Cutting." She whispered.
My heart almost skipped a beat.
I tried to hold in the tears.
I just looked at her. She was beautiful, why would she.
"Why?" I said softly.
"Because I'm worthless, ugly, fat and no one cares about me and everyone hates me. It's all my fault that Kory and Rachel are gone!" She sighed.
"Colleen you are beautiful and you are my best friend. Please don't hurt yourself anymore and if you want to then just let me know and I'll talk to you." I managed to say without breaking down.
She hugged me.
"Can you show me?" I asked, even though I was terrified of what it would look like and I'd probably regret looking at them.
She rolled up her sleeve and I saw the most horrifying 5, deep cuts that you'll ever witness, especially when it's your best friend that has them.
I couldn't take it anymore I broke down and we hugged again.
Then the doorbell rang again and this time a lot of other people arrived such as:
Rebecca and Matt, Shane, Ricky, Kian, Tyler, Troye.Hannah, Grace, Mamrie, Chester, Zoe, Joe, Alfie, Louise, Chris and his kids, Scott and Mitch and a bunch more.

The only person that didn't come apart from Rachel and Kory was Joey.
He said he couldn't make it because he had to go see his mum - which is understandable.
I shot a few collabs with Colleen and other people there. We went outside and had a barbecue. Colleen was always staying close to me. We took a lot of selfies and had a lot of fun. We tweeted a lot of pictures and things like that. Colleen said I could stay the week because she was afraid she would get tempted.
I tweeted : Fun night with my favourite boo! @Colleenb123 Instantly there was a bunch of hate and I started responding to some of it trying to defend Colleen.

After a while I noticed that Colleen disappeared.

NO!

"Josh where's Colleen?" I asked panicking.

"Toilet." He replied then went off with Julien.

GREAT!

I ran up the stairs and tried to open the door.

"Colleen OPEN UP PLEASE!" I yelled.

No reply.

I used a bobby pin and picked the lock.

I opened the door and almost fainted at the sight.

"Lilly. Help I-"
She blacked out.

I ran to her aid and cleaned the blood up.
I put a bandage on her arm and carried her out to my car.
I ran to Josh.
"I'm going to get something from the shops since I'm staying over for a week." I said and ran off to the car.

I rushed to the hospital.

I sat down in the waiting room and waited for the doctors to tell me if she was alright.

"Lilly Singh?" I jumped up.

"Colleen has-"

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A/N
HAHA CLIFF HANGER BECAUSE I'M MEAN!! This is a very long chapter.