W R O N G

Chapter 14: Because of you

{ MENTIONS OF ANXIETY/ PANIC ATTACKS//DYING//SUICIDAL PHRASES/ SELF HATE/BLAME }
Enjoy ;)
Don't kill me please.

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•Colleen's POV•
"Rachel is dying.She also has dementia"
"What do you mean!" I screamed. (Que JB's #WhatDoYouMean😎)
"What is she dying of?" I asked coming down.
"Brain tumor." He replies emotionless.
"We'll do something about it !" I yelled, frustrated and the doctor.
"We're trying." He says, in a frustrated tone.
I get fed up and storm off.
I go to the bathroom and feel a sudden tingle in my stomach,
What on earth?
I start shaking uncontrollably, my breathing changes to an uneasy, frequent, shaky mess.
I start crying, on which I can't comprehend why.
All I can think about is that my sister is dying, all because of me.
Stupid, careless me.
Me.
Me, me, me, me , me.
"ME!"
I barely yell out, as I throw myself against the wall, I trip over myself, My vision fading.
I bang my head on the wall, hard, hoping to grab someone's attention that I need help.
I see blue and white , blurry splotches and my head fall back as I lose my conciousness.

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•Lilly's POV•

I, cannot deal with this anymore.
I'm so over all this drama!
All the attention is turned on
Rachel, the dying one.
Colleen, the broken one.
Josh, the one who just returned.
Kory, the —

"WHERE THE HELL IS COLLEEN, LILLY," Josh scolds, I was meant to make sure she was okay.
See what I mean?
Colleen was my best friend.
Yes WAS.
How long must I pretend she's my best Friend.
I loved her too much.
Until she took everything from me, my worth, my everything, my Josh.
Because, my only love has turned on me now because of her, because I wasn't pretty enough, I wasn't successful enough, I wasn't happy enough, I wasn't healthy enough, I was just too broken, and now I'm JUST THERE.
I will fight though. I will get my sweet, sweet revenge, Colleen;
Watch out.
"LILLY!" Josh yells.
I try to smile sweetly at him.
"Yeah she went to the bathroom because the doctor was p- ticking her off."
My happy tone wore down when I saw the same Doctor walk past me.
I watched Josh take a deep breath.
I knew his problem and I knew he had anger issues so I was used to seeing him do this.

SLAP

But I was not used to him slapping me.

I stood up, abrupt.
Tears were forming In my eyes as I ran down the hallway to the bathroom.
I let a smirk take over my face as I saw Colleen on the floor, her hand motionless.
This isn't right Lilly, you shouldn't leave her.
No, Lilly, she took JOSH.
Lilly. No.
Lilly this all happened because of her.
"Her fault Rachel is dying," I thought out loud.
"Lllllllll..." I heard a small moan come from the stall Colleen was on.
yes! Gain conciousness so I can tear your confidence DOWN.
I will make you Hate yourself.
"Hey Colleen, your anxiety attack made me happy." I sneered evilly.
"Wh-"
"You're ugly." I Interrupted.
"L-"
"This all happened. BECAUSE OF YOU." I emphasized.
Her tears rolled of her cheek silently.
But I smiled triumphantly.
But the next two words made me feel even happier.
"You're right."
She looked down at her feet.
"Hey. Colleen stop being such a depressed emo. Colleen look at me," she looked up slowly, her eyes landed on my own,
"God you're so annoying, I hate you, kill yourself."
"Okay." She agreed.
"Thank you! Finally you're not f*cking something up. Look at you go!"
She seemed to be satisfied about dying as she hung her handbag on the door frame, leaving the long handle dangling off.
"No more pain." She explained, reading my face.
"And you're fat.
No one loves you."
"Bye Lilly tell Rachel I'll see her soon."
LILLY WHAT THE F*CK
YAAYYYYYYYYYYYY GO WIN JOSH NOW
LILLY , DONT YOU SEE . HE WONT LOVE YOU IF YOU WERE THE CAUSE OF COLLEENS DEATH!
SHUTUP, ANGEL!
NO, D. NOT THIS TIME

"COLLEEN WAIT." I rush out, as she raises her self to her tip toes to hang her neck.
She lowers her feet to the ground again.
"Yes Lilly?"
"Not now. Don't die now."
I have a plan.
And I'm going to win Josh back.

Twitter.

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HEY I FIGURED OUT SOMETHING
FROM NOW ON IMMA MAKE MY CHAP CHAPS TITLES SONG TITLES BECAUSE WHY NOT . I haven't updated in so long please don't kill me.