Bad Choices Have Reason

10. WOUNDS OF PAST

There are many phrases of our life childhood phrases, adulthood phrases...
most of the people are difficult to understand at teenage, over thinker,
stubborn and meet different type of world which they never saw...
face many problems and times that they handle by themselves...
and get wounds, which always healed but never erased forever... like wound depend upon the pain you had and do you even want to forget?
My wound always left only spots...no more pain, but always visible as a pain...

Next morning, we took some rest after walking a bit because my mental
breakdown was happening 2 to 3 times
maybe the cause is with me now, so... everyone was now complaining about this

"oh guys she is wasting our time" Grace said "I know but what can we do she has already
controlled everyone emotion especially Edwards"

another girl said and the girl next to
her also supported "yes, she even has the centre of attention by yesterday
incident"

I was just silently listening that what I don't like is being the CENTRE OF ATTENTION, I don't want
people's sympathy just about my present condition,
but at least respect, my hard work and effort, I am putting every second of
my life in this survival race

"actually I think she is just pretending..." Nora said and I finally spoke because of anger, growling

"seriously now you will
say this? Nice! Really nice!! If you want Attention, then just give them some too or should I give some on rent?"

I said and Grace stood up and was
going to move towards me for a good slap but Deena stopped her

"why? Let me go and teach her a good lesson" she said and tried to shake her
hand off but Deena was not leaving her

"she is on her rest time, later you
should solve this" Grace shook her and released herself

"no need, at least I have that much energy to fight for this" I sat down on the floor

"ok as you wish" she ran towards me and I went aside from my potion, she missed;

she again tried to punch me which I stopped and hitted on her neck which I had learnt by my martial art teacher and kicked on her stomach;

pushed her downward so she fell on the floor, that happened so quick that I didn't realize when it
ended

"these are some things which I leant at school,
now you should
understand that time for the recording I had been beaten by you but now there is no this type of situation"

I said and Edward entered the room "what is...?" and saw us fighting "what is really going on?" I smiled

"just someone is trying to let me down but didn't really know me" Edward was trying to analyse the situation

"stop, plz Abby and we are going to move now and after 7 rooms then we will go to Medical faculty floor ok"

he said and everyone agreed; then we heard a loud sound but no one knowns what it could be but we didn't gave too much attention to it

"you should save your
energy to at least reach the medical floor"

I want to slap her but I
remember what Edward said "we will see" I moved to Edward

"thanks but I
don't any" I said and left that conversation;

she always take my intention
other way or maybe she is thinking I am showing sympathy

At the night I was trying to sleep but can't so I just went on the window, as I
always do when I can't sleep;

what has happened to our world? All the things are messed up around the world and in my mind

"hey! not sleeping?" I turned around and saw Jada "oh and I think you too?" I moved aside, so that Jada
can also sit

"um... no actually I saw you sitting so I came to accompany you" I nodded "so I will get to the point...how is your leg?"

I looked confusingly at him "means I saw you walking not comfortably after that attack so I was
worried"

I held my left leg "uh...it might be sprain not serious" I said and he
took my leg and stretched it

"no it's no need-ah" I tried to stop him but he already saw what I was hiding "what are they?!"

He said little loudly, so I close his mouth "sorry...but can I ask how?" I pointed at my left leg scar
new one as well as old one

"actually-" as soon as I could say something he took his handkerchief and tied around my leg

"this will be ok in 2 or 3 weeks
because there is medicine available now but we can find some at medical
floor"

I don't know how to react but to smile, I think I found good people
here after these many years I thought everyone just want to use me...

(Edward pov.)What was that noise, I opened my eyes "sorry...but can I ask how?" is that Jada there? I was taking a peek, what was going on

"actually-" before she could say something he took his handkerchief and tied around her leg

"this will be ok in 2 or 3 weeks because there is on medicine available now but we can find some at medical floor"

I didn't notice that I would be a good leader but
not a good lover...I don't know I am JEALOUS from him
or I am guilty that I didn't notice her pain
and she was not comfortable to tell me
either I should sleep and give them privacy

I turned around and slept
again (his pov. End)

"so now lets talk about the old one" I took a deep breath and I saw
Edward moving,

so I said him to be quite for a while and when he stopped then I said "its been a long time... I didn't hurt myself after that..."

he was shocked "what it means?" I nodded "I made that with my own hands"

my eyes were not showing regret "how can someone?" I smiled
"this is also a part of mental breakdown, sometimes
I go insane and by seeing blood
or being in pain make me better...
but now I am into BTS so,
I am trying to leave it and it's been a long time from then"

I looked down "you also think I need a doctor but
I just need someone to understand and no judgement for this case...
or any part of my past"

I said and saw Jada's eyes
was little teary "oh plz don't cry" I said but he didn't accept it

"no I wasn't but like you said
you don't need Judgement so; can I hug you?"

I was hesitating but he hugged me, I do want but can't, when I want I can't but when I don't it automatically comes out

"don't have to be strong in front of me and can share anything if you want..."

he said and nodded he gave me a side hug and left back to his place again; I won't lie that I don't like what happened now but I
was just thinking do I really deserve it...

I looked up in the sky towards the
moon, but one thing I deserve that's my story to be published,

I took my laptop out but it was out of battery, sh*t sad life but I have my back up I took my pen and note book out and continued my story

"I also want to read it..." I
was scared because he said so suddenly "are you not gonna sleep?"

he thought for a while and said "I am not sleepy so I want to read your story"

I smiled "ok here" I gave him the parts which were on the paper or hard copy
"okay and other were in your laptop?"

I nodded "and it's dead so I am
writing in notebook" I said; we both talked for almost whole night