Hate

Chapter 11

I weighed myself this morning. 125 pounds. Good. I lost weight. I have to keep going to get down to 120, my goal weight at the moment. I guess that's enough inspiration to keep going.

"Hey Clair," Niall's voice awakens me from my thoughts. "So... I was wondering if you would eat lunch with me today... will you?"

"Sure, I'd love to," I answer him without thinking.

"Cool see you then at the table closest to the door."

"Ok."

I'm such an idiot. I know I could still cancel it but that would be rude. And I want to..... get to know him better.

.....

The bell rings indicating lunch. I walk inside the cafeteria and see Niall sitting where he said he'd be. And he's sitting with Jennifer. Of course I should have known...They are dating. Duh.

Well fuck, now what do I do? I already said I'd be there, I can't back out of it now.

"Hi, can I sit here," I say while pointing at the seat across where Niall and Jennifer where sitting at.

"Sure Clair, thanks for coming," Niall says to me.

"Wow Clair you look great!" Jennifer says to me.

"Really? Uhh thanks Jennifer." I respond a bit shocked.

"Yah! You look thin, have you been eating less or puking more?!" She says in the meanest way possible while staring directly into my soul.

"Jen, don't say that." Niall says with an angry look on his face.

I don't know what to say. What the fuck. I'm not bulimic. But I have been starving more. Just to get down to my goal weight. I don't know what to say. I can't even fucking breathe right anymore.

"Neither Jennifer, so if I were you I'd keep your mouth shut," I snap at her.

"No need to loose your temper Clair, I'm just joking with you. Can't you take a joke!?"

Fucking bullshit.

"Oh Clair! I just remembered. My 16th birthday is coming up next Saturday. I'm inviting like literally the entire school. Your coming aren't you? You'd be like totally left out if you don't come. Its going to be like, the party of the year. You have to come," Jennifer asks.

"Me? Your inviting me!?" I respond astonished. "Why would you invite me?"

"Because I want it to be like the biggest party of the year. So I'm like inviting the whole school. Why else would I invite you? Because I like you? Hah!" She laughs

"Well, I guess you don't have to come because of all people there." Jennifer says.

"What are you talking about," I question.

"I just don't want it to be to scary for you, so much people...."

"What do you mean?" I ask.

"There's going to be a lot of people there. Are you sure you can handle that?" She says with an evil smirk.

That bitch.

"Of course I can come. " I say, bothered.

The lunch bell rings.

"Cool, see you there then?" She asks.

"Yah"

"Are you sure? You can still cancel if your social anxiety gets the better of you," she says, trying to make me mad.

"I'll be there, trust me." I say to prove her wrong.

I get up and walk away from the table. When I'm a few steps away from the table I hear Niall say, "will you stop being mean to Clair? Your being a bit of a bitch."

I can't help but laugh quietly to myself when I hear him say that.

"Me!? A bitch! How am I the bitch!? You've haven't been the same ever since you've met Clair. What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Nothing, I just think you should try to be nicer to Clair." Niall says

"Fine," Jennifer responds, "I'll be nice to her, just for you Ni."

By this point I'm out of the cafeteria.

Again with the bullshit.

Jennifer is such a bullshitter.

Niall can't really believe her.

But Niall doesn't know her like I do. He is still new at this school. He doesn't know how mean Jennifer can be. And how much of a fucking liar she can be.

But there's another thing that is still bothering me...

I have to go to a fucking party.

Damnit.

Fuck my life.