Hate

Chapter 12

I am standing outside the door. Outside the door where I know hell will begin.

It's pretty scary. I'm terrified actually.

Just to walk through these doors.

My mom offered to come with me. But I'm not sure of that would make it better or worse.

Better so that I'm not alone going in.

Or worse because it's my mom.

I told her I was ok going on my own.

I could do this. I told Jennifer I would be there and I'm going to be. I'm not going to back out of it now. Jennifer would never stop talking about it.

I push the doors open and walk inside.

I walk into a huge room covered in black, white and red accessories.

It's a classy party. It would've helped if she would have told me that.

I'm wearing a black dress (my mom said it looked nice on me and told me to wear it.) But I still feel insecure and I still lack the confidence I wish I would've had by now.

"Wow Clair you look nice. I love that dress on you!" Jennifer says to me then walks away.
I'm pretty sure it was like when Regina George told that girl she liked her skirt when she really didn't. (Mean Girls!)
(Haha)

I look around the room. There are 12 large, circular tables covered in lace table cloths with red roses for the centerpiece.

And there's a large rectangular table at the other end of the room with the same decorations as the the other 12.

And the rest of the room is empty except for a disco ball on the ceiling.

Well shit, I'm not going to fucking dance.

I walk a bit closer, not really sure of what do. A couple of people are sitting down so I sit down as well at an empty table.

I look around to see what every one else is doing and they are just talking to their friends. Well I can't exactly do that...... I don't know anyone here.

Why did I come? It's obvious that I don't belong here.

When more people started coming in, they also started to sit down. A few people including Niall, Lauren, and Rachel go to the front of the room and sit down at the long rectangular table leaving the center seat open.

Eventually I see Jennifer walk to the front of the room where the rectangle table is at.

She is holding a microphone and says. "I just want to thank everyone for coming to my 16th birthday! Food will be coming soon if your hungry. I hope you all have a great time."

Jennifer walks to her seat in the middle of the table and sits down.

Everybody starts talking and a few people sit next to me.

A couple minutes later, Jennifer walks up the microphone and announces that the food is ready, and to form a line by the tables with the food on it.

A line begins to form and I stand up and walk towards the line as well. Although the line is very long, if I peek my head through all of the people I can see what food is being served.