Jade
I gave my heart and soul into Alex. This more than just in our story. This is the reality behind the story. Alex. Cheated. With at least one other girl. I should hate him. But I don't. I don't even hate her. I hate myself. All I can think is, what the hell did I do wrong. I know I did something. I'm annoying. I'm jealous. He's just a flirt. He says things just to make me happy. Not the truth. He flirted with all of my friends. He flirted with WHO THE FUCK KNOWS ELSE. But I still wish it was me Who had his heart and not her. I wish I did. I wish I wish wish. I would do ANYTHING to win him back.....anything dammit.... And it's sad because after Josh left, I only relied on Alex. He is my everything. He is the only reason anyone ever saw me actually happy anymore.
And I though for sure that Alex was the one who saved my life. But now, he's the reason I've almost ended it.
I just wish I had it. I wish I had whatever the other girl had that I don't.
A/n
Probably gonna start another new story.... Yeah. If you want to read it just.... Follow and I'll keep you updated.
