The Southern Bank

Chapter 7

I sit in the police station, in a room with bland walls with a mirror on one of the walls. I knew they were watching. I just wanted to know why they are questioning me. Two officers walk into the room, when they see me they look like they had see a ghost. I know how I look, dark eye bags, ratted hair, and skin that has not been touched by water and soap for a long time. It's been a few days since I found out about Ivan. The officers sit down across from me, "April, we have been aware of the history you have about your ex, how you had lost a child, and more but we are wondering why this is all happening to you and only you." the lady officer said. What were they getting at? Were they saying I did all this? Started this when me and Charles started dating? Do they think the entire reason I made Charles go to Prison was because it was a game? "What, I don't understand?" I wondered. "Well we found Ivan's journal under his bed," They went on.

Journal? 

"In his journal that 'Ms. April has a drug problem, I think it's because of her past. I think she might be crazy in mentally ill.' do you have any connection with any drugs, maybe heroin?" one started. I couldn't believe what I was hearing, I sat there in shock and confusion on my face. "I never had done drugs. I tried my best to stay composed for Ivan, I never mention my past except my son." I tried to plead, I couldn't sit still because I was worried that they won't believe me.

Please.

Please Believe me.

"We will have to get you a lawyer ma'am, because we are going to have a court meeting with a jury to see if it really wasn't you." They stated, I sat there blank. blank face, blank mind, and blank memory. They continued on but I couldn't hear them. They think I planted Ivan's DNA on the ax. I looked at them talking without any sound in the air. They pushed papers over to me with a ink pad. The next think I knew I was out in my car, that's where my memory picked back up. I can't cry, I feel no emotions, I cant think. I went to my dad's home, the only place I can go without thinking about anything. And plus I need a place to stay while police searches her house. I saw my dad talking but I heard nothing, I just hear ringing. Silence. I get into the shower with my clothes still on and just sit on the floor while the water hit my face. Tears faded in with the water. Nothing on my mind except a small photo of William. A photo where we were celebrating his 4th birthday. Cake all over his face with a smile bigger than Texas, I was in the back laughing with my short hair. I had that photo in my room and would see it every morning and every night. I knew I had to get ready for Court in a few days, Parker v. Jury. Atleast thats what it feels like. Ms. April Madeline Parker, Vs. the world. But this is no movie, this is real life. I went to bed knowing,

I will never win.

I will lose to a 12-year-old boy.

I will lose to a child.