Lost Luna

I Love You This big

I lay back in the long grass and wild flowers, splaying my hair around. Tomorrow is to be our last day here, and I'm missing this place already. I've found peace and solace here. The thought of going anywhere makes my anxiety rise. But I know what I need to do.

Being a Leader is a 24/7 job. And I need to be there to prove my leadership. I have alot to learn, but with Leo and Abel by my side I know I'll be ok.

I sit up and pull my cell from my dress pocket. Holding it in my lap, I just stare down at it. I haven't turned it on in weeks, and can only imagine the number of messages I have. Between the business, and lawyers I'd expect my mailbox to be full. I close my eyes and hold my breath as I hold the power button. Once I show face and tackle a few things with them I'll return to the city and square things away with the lawyers. This is the plan in my mind. Whether or not I can actually do it is a different story.

The phone goes to its home screen and immediately notifications start to pop up. My voicemail box is full, 30 text messages and emails are into the thousands. I drop my phone and flop back into the grass with my arms outstretched. I hear a chuckle causing me to open my eyes. I turn my head in the direction it came from, and see Abel. He graces me with his beautiful smile, and squats down beside me.

"That bad Princess?" I nod my head and show him my phone. He takes it from my hand to take a closer look. His eyes go big before making the eek face, his beautiful teeth on display. "Looks like you need an assistant to take care of this." I quirk a brow looking at him.

"Oh yeah, you know someone whose willing to volunteer? I don't have the money to pay anyone." I turn my back and drape my forearm across my eyes.

"Actually you do. Or you will once you sign the papers all these lawyers are contacting you about in these emails. You can afford to hire someone once everything is in your name. Or you can give it all away and make it someone elses problem." I chuckle at the thought of passing off my problems.

"Yeah that doesn't sound mean at all. Passing the buck." I uncover my face, and turnon my side into the fetal position facing Abel. "Honestly, right now I feel like passing everything off to someone else. I don't want to leave this place. I just want to live out the rest of my life in hiding." I grab his hand and tug. He smiles and lays on his side facing me, supporting himself on his elbow. His hand comes up and he caresses my cheek with his thumb as he cups my face.

"Can I stay in hiding with you? Or are you giving me my walking papers?" I smirk, laughing through my nose.

"Well since it is your house, I guess you can stay." He looks down and bites the inside corner of his lips. His hands playing with a long blade of grade of grass.

"What if it was our house?" his eye flash to mine to gauge my reaction. I furrow my brows as I push myself to sit up, and onto my feet. I start to walk back towards the house when he calls after me. I hear him run through the tall grass. He grabs my arm to stop me. "Ava stop. Talk to me." throwing my head back to look up at the clear sky, I dont even know what to say that will make sense.

"I don't know what to say." He rubs his hand up and down my arm. The hum doing its job to put my mind at peace. To calm the chaos so I can think.

"Has this time alone with me meant anything to you?" I crane my neck to look up at him. I step closer to him and wrap my arms around his waist.

"The time alone with you is why I dont want to leave this place. You know when I need you, and you know when I need space. You've made me laugh harder, and feel happier than I ever have.  But I'm still not free."

"Free of what exactly?"

"I'm not free of my past life. I still have ties that need to be cut. The apartments, house in Italy, and Reigns industries."