11/20/23
I had this one pinned bc I think it's really good & I really like it :))
About my depression :/ but I'm feel really good at writing stuff like this :)
ALSO the photo above is from SAD-IST's animation HOG HUNT, it's soooooo good, i know it's kinda old but it will never stop being the most epic thing ever, everything they make is sooo awesome <3
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As I look around at myself and everything around me
I see that I have poisoned myself.
I have struck a match and let my heart burn
For the past several months
Every day, daylight is wasted
I stand in my room, thinking
Right now, I could do everything on my list for today
Why didn't I do it?
That is my poison.
It drowns me,
But it never kills me.
But sometimes I wish it did.
Sometimes I want the poison to shatter my heart,
So I don't have to feel all of this.
This that makes me want to curl up
On my bedroom floor
When no one is around to see me
And let the tears run like a train,
Speeding past,
Unable to catch,
Not sure where it's headed,
But still going.
Going, going, going.
Sometimes I want the poison to fracture my head
So I don't have to think
About everything that's wrong with me
And what I'm doing
And what I've been doing,
And how I promised myself I would do better,
I promised myself
I would be better
And I'm not
I promised myself.
And I failed.
The worst feeling
Is when you fail yourself.
Over and over and over and over and over and over again
Months and months and months
Weeks and weeks
And days after days after days
The hours passing without meaning
My life is pointless,
Meaningless,
Why am I still here?
Why am I drowning in my poison?
YOU ARE READING
2023 Poetry
PoetryI write a lot of poems / songs on my notes app, so I hope to be posting some of them from 2023 :) I appreciate you so much <3 I love reading your comments, it makes me so happy, and I'm so glad you're enjoying my writing <3 <3
