i love you, i'm sorry ¹ [poetry] ✓

xv. favorite stranger

painkillers - gracie abrams

i felt pain long before you came, you're not any special
it just seems a little different than it has ever been
might be 'cause i opened my heart again, and stupid little me fell right into your trap
are you happy that we're in a place where you have me right in your hand?
or do you secretly wish, too, that you could kill me instead?

sometimes i felt lucky that i wasn't your favorite stranger yet
but we both know it and you wanted it to happen
so here we go, we're falling out again

i hope you're glad to have it done, and that it's finally time to go for you
now that you've achieved your goal, go run and leave me out in the blue
you were the ocean in my mind but it's never been so terrifying

it somehow feels like it's all my fault at this point
is there any hate club against me that i am good to join?
i honestly think there might be one under your name
when did we stop sharing secrets and start sharing hate?