i love you, i'm sorry ¹ [poetry] ✓

xxxv. dearth of communication

emails i can't send - sabrina carpenter

you sent me a telegram with all the words that are worthless now

when we start being vulnerable, you start shutting me out

and that kinda drags me down but, hey, as long as it's legally allowed

in a month or so, you'll introduce me to the girlfriend you've been talking about

how can you not recall the way the last one turned out?

in all honestly, i hope she drowns

because, remember when you said that would be over for now?

you will probably repeat all that has happened back then

it wouldn't surprise me if that leads to another, huger fallout

don't you have a job to do as my parent?

if not you, who's here to protect me when things go south?

every one of our discussions evolves into the same again

you shout, i try, but you don't listen to my objections in the end

we fight, i cry, then i bottle my feelings up and pretend like it's nothing again

does anyone care that everything i do is nothing more than a distraction?

for how long do i have to keep apologizing for you?

tell everybody that that's just who you've always been?

do you know that i am terrified of becoming like you?

it's hard to tell the difference, what if the line is getting thin?

i hate that i reflect everything you do, you're making me unlikeable

this might be a fight that i cannot win,

but if i come out as a champion, i will surely not implement your will.