Silver Tears - Ethan Nakamura

Thirty-eight: Hold up, he's my Grandpa? This is so strange.

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!

It's been a week now, since Nico and I left camp.

I was cleaning the kitchen, and Nico had already gone to bed. It was the first time Nico has been able to sleep, he would say that he would keep having bad dreams. I had sent a praying to Morpheus, praying for Nico to have some good dreams.

That left me alone in the silence of the kitchen as I cleaned. I grabbed the plate that Nico had left on the counter and washed it. I had made us pasta, and I saw the way his eye's lit up. As he ate, he said it tasted just like his mother's did. Although he doesn't remember his past, he can remember taste. And just hearing that made me smile.

For the first time in a while, I had smiled. A real smile, not a faked smile.

Persephone had pulled some strings and managed to get Psyche to give us some therapy sessions. Persephone's said, her words not mine, as much as I hate that boy for being a product of my husband's affairs, he deserves some peace, though I highly doubt he will get that, being his fathers child.

I was grateful for what Persephone did. Psyche is to come to the apartment on Fridays. We had our first session yesterday, and it's safe to say we don't like talking about our feelings. Nico, well he holds a grudge against Percy, he believes Percy was trying to him and I.

Psyche sat there and listened to Nico, she had given him advice and explained everything he's feeling is normal for a kid his age after losing his sister. He hadn't wanted to even try to interact with Psyche.

He was in that mindset that therapist are for the mentally insane. It is also through Psyche that he learned about the fact that he is from the 1940's. It was a lot for Nico to take in, he hadn't wanted to believe it.

Psyche had spent two hours with each of us. She later spent one hour with the both of us.

Psyche was nice, she listened to us and gave us a lot of advice. It was my first time meeting her but she was beyond nice, and not to mention beautiful.

Hopefully, maybe one day Nico and I will be okay. I thought about something Hades had told me before.

My children rarely ever have happy endings.

I wanted. No, I needed Nico to be the exception. I just hoped he found himself a person to be happy with, someone that isn't me. I love Nico, I'd protect Nico until the end of my time. But he deserves someone, other than me.

I know I won't always be there, and I need someone else to be there for him. I had only know him for like two weeks now and I had already grown way to attached to him.

Attachments made me think of my friends.

I missed them so fucking much, I was mad at them for not telling me Ethan had left. But gods I missed them so much, I've never gone this long without talking to them. Even on quest's I'd find time to text them and call them.