❝you're in danger here, spencer.❞
❝we'll worry about that later. right now all that matters is you and me.❞
hazel finley is afraid. afraid of being alone. afraid of losing the people she loves. afraid of making mistakes. afraid of falling back into...
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❝The past beats inside me like a second heart.❞
JOHN BANVILLE
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2.5 : the trial
(tw: mentions of abuse)
"ARE YOU SURE YOU DON'T WANT ME TO COME WITH YOU?" Spencer asks for the umpteenth time, lowering his voice as Anderson walks past his desk carrying a stack of files. It's starting to annoy Fin. As much as she adores Spencer and appreciates how much he cares about her, this is exactly why she never tells anyone about her past. They start to treat her differently, like she's something fragile, to be handled delicately, lest she fall apart at the slightest inconvenience.
"Spencer, I'll be fine." Fin pushes her sweater sleeves up, showing him her hands, which aren't shaking at all. "I promise. I can do this."
"I know you can." Spencer takes her hand in his and presses a kiss to her palm, looking up at her with soft doe-eyes. "I just worry about you. I don't want you to feel alone."
"If I need you, I'll text you," Fin says, patting her phone through the back pocket of her jeans. "Okay?"
He nods resignedly. "Okay."
"Fin!"
Fin yanks her hand out of Spencer's just in time to turn, smiling, and face Blair, who's just leaving Hotch's office, Ethan trailing behind her.
"Hey," Fin says, nodding to her and Ethan. "So...are we telling anyone else?"
Blair makes a face. "I'm leaving that up to Agent Hotchner. After what happened several months ago with Agent Prentiss, I suggested it would be wise to tell Chief Strauss, but that's his decision. And yours, to some degree."
"What happens if we don't tell her?" Spencer asks, perching on the edge of his desk.
"Likely another Senate hearing," Ethan replies curtly, before Blair can say a word. "And an in-depth investigation. With two BAU agents being targeted within the span of a year, the Bureau would have to consider whether it would be safer to split this unit up amongst the others. If you can get Chief Strauss on your side, it won't just be you versus the machine. She can advocate to keep the unit together, as well as potentially hold the Senate committee at bay."
"What he said." Blair rolls her eyes at Ethan, who just frowns, as usual. "And we're on your side, too, of course. No one, outside of us and your team, knows every detail about this case, and they won't until it's over and done with."
"Thanks, Blair." Fin gives her a quick hug and shakes Ethan's hand semi-formally. "You know, Ethan, you should stop by more often. Your smile just lights up the room."
