Stepbrother || c.h. au

Thirteen

How did I end up here, laying with my back faced towards Calums as he did the same. I hugged myself tightly feeling exposed in only a shirt, not having the guts to walk across the room and retrieve the rest of my clothes in risk of waking Calum up. I always wanted this, to feel the warmth of Calums bare chest as she hovered over me. Now that it happened, I regret every second of it.

Don't get me wrong, it's not like it was bad. 

It just felt wrong and dirty.

Still for some reason I longed for him to touch me and kiss me and fuck I've gotten myself into a mess. When he wakes up we're gonna have to talk about this and I don't want to. I've never been really good with serious conversation, too much thought and feelings are put into it. I always end up breaking down in tears, damn I hate being so sensitive and weak.

I grew stiff and widened my eyes as Calum shifted in his slumber snaking an arm across my body. He breathed on my neck, sending chills down my spine every time he breathed out softly. This could never work, we could never work. It breaks my heart that the reality of it is, Calum will always be my stepbrother. 

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"Sorry!" Calum yelled pushing my piece out the way with his sending it flying across the room. 

The boys had finally left after three hours of us playing board games, so here Calum and I sat crisscross on the floor playing another round of Sorry! without them. Calum being the little kid he still is on the inside took it personal whenever one of his pieces were sent back home. Causing him to get in his feelings and take it out on my pieces. 

I sighed "I'm bored" my shoulder dropped.

"Mad that I'm finally winning?" he raised an eyebrow.

I shook my head flashing him an annoyed look "Not really".

I closed my eyes letting Twenty One Pilots play from the memory in my head, I hummed silently almost forgetting Calum was there watching me intently. I felt his stare one me, every second of his eyes being on me I grew more annoyed with him. 

"What" I said through gritted teeth.

I could practically here the smirk playing on his lips "Nothing".

I opened one eye "Why are you smiling then?"

"Just looking at you".

"Exactly, stop it" closing my eye again to enjoy the dark.

"Why".

"Because it's annoying".

"But you're pretty".

I froze and opened my eyes "You think I'm pretty?"

He shrugged giving me a slightly weirded out look "Uh, yeah I guess".

I sighed "Calum" I started, he hummed in response. "I - I" I stuttered not being able to come out and tell him the truth. It was a crazy idea, what if he turned me down and thought I was weird and disgusting for wanting to do it with my stepbrother. My thoughts were interrupted by his lips connecting on mine, his hands resting softly against my cheek.

 he stopped the kiss backing away slightly "Delilah I'm not going to lie, I don't like you. At least I don't think I do. All I know is you're hot and I want you so bad but I can't act on my feelings because your my stepsister. So, either this is gonna get me laid or you're gonna tell your mom and have me kicked out" he spoke all in one breath. 

I felt a little hurt that he didn't exactly have feelings for me, though I kind of feel the same for him. This was good enough for me, I needed him already.

"I won't tell" I breathed out flashing a cricket smile.

His eyes widened and the next thing I knew I'm running upstairs following behind Calum with my hand in his. He attacked me causing us to both fall onto his bed. A minute or so later of a heated make out session our clothes were no longer existent. He grabbed a rubber from a drawer slipping it on "Are you sure about this?" he spoke softly, I nodded gripping onto his muscular arms. 

As fast as it started, it was over. (Why am I laughing at this, I wrote it for crying out loud)

She finally did it guys, it finally happened. 

I'm no longer thinking of deleting this, I was just up in my feelings yesterday... sorry for the scare. 

Love you!