Her Bully | PURINZ

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C H A E W O N
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It's been four fucking days, and I haven't even heard an angelic voice coming from Yunjin as I lurk around the hallways to hear her talk to someone, just so I can get a record of her amazing voice.

Damn it, being away from her is opening up my unsure feelings to a whole new level, and it's not something I can deal with—especially when Ryujin bailed on me after the grocery trip and told me not to go to Yunjin's yet. She said to give her some time because, as of now, Yunjin's walls are too high to let me in again.

So, every day, I'd rush to an empty classroom and hide behind the open door whenever Yunjin would pass by, just so I could hear her talk again.

God, I'm really down bad.

One time, Ryujin caught me, and I had to endure a whole day of teasing just because of that. But I have to be honest, telling someone how I feel is not so bad after all. I get to have a person who understands me and be there for me, and sure, Rei's great, but she's not in my school where most of my shit happens.

"So, can I go now? I cannot stand this any longer. She's going to think that I really don't care."

I sigh, frustrated, as I stay rooted inside Ryujin's car, waiting for her to either bring me home or to Yunjin's house.

Ryujin clucks her tongue and nods.

"Since you want to so badly, I think you should go today."

I jolt on the leather chair and grin widely—stopping my expression before Ryujin sees it as I slap my face, cursing at myself for turning into such a wimp.

"Then drive before I jump out of this car and walk myself."

I hiss, leaning my head on the window as I peek behind me at the grocery plastic bags and the rolled-up bouquet of five roses. All of a sudden, the nerves come, and I feel my body freezing as I shake my head.

"I can't do this." I let out, biting my lip.

"This is insane—I should be happy. She doesn't want to be bothered by me anymore, Ryujin—I can walk away and pretend like it never happened and continue being a bitch in school."

Ryujin side-eyes me and stops right in front of Minji's house, turning off the engine as I peer out at the yellow bricks on top.

Sighing, I rub my forehead while shaking my head.

"I can't do this, Ryujin. This is so not me. I don't apologize, I don't make efforts, I don't give flowers or—"

"Okay, Chaewon, you could pretend like this never happened," Ryujin hums, leaning back in her seat as she reclines it. "And live to feel broken, depressed, and lost for your whole life, or maybe think of a lot of 'what ifs.' Or you can try doing something a bit different this time and tell Yunjin how you really feel about her."

I pinch my lips together.

"But this isn't me, Ryujin." I reason out again, huffing out in frustration as I cross my arms.

"I don't fucking do this shit." I start to ramble curse words, watching as Ryujin laughs at me.

"Bring me home." I sigh, sulking down in my seat as the silence engulfs us.

"Uhm, okay. Just watch Yunjin become Ahyeon's girlfriend in the next few weeks. Get used to seeing them in the hallways holding hands and being sweet with each other, and imagine them kissing and, of course, having hot sex like you usually do." Ryujin replies, going to turn the engine on again as I frown at her and roll my eyes, pushing the door open as I ignore her giggles and reach for the stuff in the backseat of the car, sending her a glare as she winks back at me.