The Mafia's Game

Chapter 28 *I like you*

Kayla's POV

"Hello" I muttered softly. That single word, just uttering that four lettered word felt like the air was leaving my lungs. It felt as if my chest was constricting, my heart was hammering against my chest in order to be set free. Everything that happened burned inside me, reminding me just how tense the situation was. And a fire that I couldn't seem to put out, ran ablaze all around me.

I shut my eyes closed trying to calm my raging emotions. trying not to go back to that dark place ever again. feeling the heat of the tears as they flow down my cheeks. I swallowed down the lump in my throat, I ready myself for what's to come. 

"Hello, sweetie where have you been, the bodyguard lost track of you." she started, I could hear the worry in her voice. ''your dad and I have been trying to contact you since yesterday.'' I couldn't bring myself to say anything, it was as if I had gone mute. ''Kayla please say something, where are you.'' 

''there is no need to worry, I'm at Londan's place.'' I finally said, I could hear shuffling on the end.  

''Not that boy again. Didn't I tell you to stay away from him, and the first thing you did when we left is run back to him.'' she scolded, I was boiling inside I tried my best to calm myself down, but I couldn't.

''I did not run to him, as a matter of fact I was invited by Liya the person put her life on the line for me, so I couldn't exactly say no just because my lying parents said I should stay away from Londan.'' I hissed but I soon regrated it, when my dad replied instead of my mom.

''Do not talk to your mother like that.'' he warned, but I wasn't backing down.

''I can, and I will all have done my entire life is lie, nothing but lies.'' I cried.

''Sweetheart what are you talking about?'' he muttered just above a whisper.

''No more lies, just tell me truth prove them all wrong.''

''Kayla what are talking about?''

''You know exactly what I'm talking about mom, you know too well what I'm talking about.'' I cried, tears ran down my cheeks. ''Tell me your name is Anderson Brown and not Dimitri Ivanov. Tell me that you are not a member of the Russian mafia.'' I just above a whisper, there was feigning silence at the other end of the line.

''Kayla honey, it's not what it looks like, your mom and I will come home so we talk about this.'' my dad tried to reason.

''No this is exactly what it looks like, just say yes or no. Are the accusations true or false.'' I crossed my fingers giving myself false hope knowing too well what the truth is.

''It's true.'' he said, and I immediately cut the call and switched off my phone. I closed my eyes unable to keep it all in. I got my rubber band from my bag and adorned it over my wrist and started snapping it like my life depended on it, just like my therapist advised trying my very best to concentrate on something but it wasn't working. I immediately ran to the bathroom turning on the shower to the coldest temperature. The ice water ran down my body but still couldn't put out the fire burning inside me.

I sat down under the shower snapping my band, the stinging wasn't enough to calm the raging storm in my heart. I clutched my chest trying my very best to get rid of the heartache that was being bestowed upon me. It was just way too much to handle, my vision blurred, and I pinched the skin just above my wrist hard trying my best to concentrate on the pain. It wasn't for my vision continued to dim, I used all my strength to pinch my own flesh until I saw crimson red.

Blood flowed from my wrist as the shower water washed it all away that was enough for me to calm my raging thoughts. just then the door busted open and I saw Londan come in looking disheveled. ''What the heck Kayla, I have been calling out to you for over thirty minutes!'' He scolded, his eyes softened at the mere sight of me.

He looked at me with a scrutinizing gaze, I couldn't hold eye contact with him. I felt judged, most importantly I felt stupid for allowing myself to fall back into that dark place that I worked so hard to get out of. Londan let out a sigh of exhaustion and turned off the water, crouching before me he picked me up in his arms and took me to the walk-in closet and set me the countertop. He stood in between my legs and lifted my arms removing the soaked hoodie leaving me in only his oversized t-shirt and joggers. He handed me a fresh pair of clothing and faced the other side I didn't have it in to say anything, so I just changed. Once I was done changing Londan grabbed the first aid kit and disinfected the cut and applied a band aid.

He picked me up once again carrying me out the room and down the stairs to the kitchen. He passed me a plate of food, but I couldn't even fathom the taste of food right now. "Eat." He commanded but I just couldn't. Letting out a sigh Londan didn't force me any further, he instead a glass of Orange juice. He offered it to me with pleading eyes and I just couldn't say no so I took it.

Once I was done Londan led me outside, the house was empty and silent. I had no idea we're the rest had gone and I just didn't have it in me to ask any questions. Settling for the seats by the pool Londan and I sat in silence. " you want to talk about it?" Londan asked, I just looked straight ahead contemplating whether I should confide in him or not.

I looked at him and found him already doing the same. And for the first time it wasn't just a cold, blank, emotionless stare. I could see the warmth in his eyes and I found myself wanting to reveal every little thing about myself. " My parents didn't deny it." I started it was just too much for me to handle right now. I forced back the tears I didn't want him to see me so vulnerable anymore. "And I had a panic attack after so many years and I couldn't- I failed to extinguish the fire inside me. I failed!" I cried, once again because of how weak I have become, I allowed myself to go back to a position where I had promised myself to never return. Tears dropped from my eyes and felt Londan shift closer and embraced me in a hug that I didn't know I needed until now.

"Shh it's alright, everything will be alright trust me." He comforted.

"Nothing will ever be alright, nothing." I whispered and Londan held me tighter. We stayed like that in each other's embrace for what felt like forever.

"No matter what happens just have faith that everything will be alright." He said putting me in a position where I was looking directly in his eyes. I was literally straddling him. I just nodded my head as I rested it against his chest feeling his heartbeat. His arm wrapped around my waist holding me in place.

Right in this moment I couldn't deny just how much I liked him, I liked the way he talked, the way he walked, the way he looked at me and most importantly the way he cared for me. And right now I just felt like screaming to the entire world and letting it know just how much I liked him. I raised my head from his chest and looked directly into his eyes unable to keep in at more. " I like you, I like you very much." I said. He just stared at me as if I had grown two heads and I regretted it right at this very moment. I lowered my head down unable to face this humiliation, he tilted my head making me look into his eyes.

"Are you sure?" He asked and that just upset me. I felt like I was being mocked, I made an attempt to get off his lap but he grabbed my waist holding me in place.

"Where are you going?"

"Anywhere but here."

"Why?"

"Because I just told you how I feel and you are belittling by questioning my feelings." I said trying to get up once again.

"No!"

"No?"

"Yes because you have said what you wanted to say now it's my turn." He said pulling me closer to him. He placed the hair that was covering my face behind my ear. I opened my eyes to say something but his soft lips touching mine.

Authors note 📝

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