Racing hearts reunited

Part 11

~ Mia Fewtrell~

When I woke up again after a 2 hour nap, my breakfast was there on the table waiting for me and I was already feeling slightly better.

I layed the whole day in the hospital bed as I was instructed I needed to stay in for medical supervision post surgery by my doctor.

I was a bit bummed I couldn't phisically see the free practices the boys had today. But I managed to watch it on my phone. Definitely doesn't compare to the real experience, which I was dying to see in real life again, but i guess the phone worked for today.

During the day, I got bored about 5 times, all I had was my phone, the tv and a book. I had only about 100 pages left on my book so you can imagine I finished that preety quickly in the day. Next I stayed on my phone, destroying my eyes while being on TikTok for a few hours, somehow it's the worst but the best. The TV I used mostly just for the guys free practices as I had no interest in watching anything else.

You can only do so much before the boredom hits you again. And being in those white, depressing room was definitely speeding up the boredom.

They said I should also stay again overnight even though I started feeling much better over the course of today.

  Everyone visited me, and braught me dinner late in the evening after their day was done. They all sat with me to eat, gathered around my bed, we all enjoyed our meal together. It was lovely to have them being here for me, after being alone for the whole day, Only me and my phone.

They asked me how I'm doing and if I'm better and all the questions you ask someone that had surgery last night, and after a good 10 to 15 minutes trying to convince them I'm fine they each started talking about their day, and how everything went for them. I was enjoying every minute of the whole get together.

Surprisingly, Lando was acting incredibly nonchalant, opposed to me who I was freaking out and constantly checking on him. I was slightly stressed and embarrassed the whole evening with them being here. It was just a few hours ago I just embarrassed my ass off in front of Lando, and now he's really here acting like nothing happened. Maybe I'm overthinking it, I really need to get out of my head what happened this morning in order to enjoy the evening more.

After saying their goodbyes and making sure I'm comfortable, they all left, and I decided to head to bed, as I was incredibly exited to wake up and be able to leave this depressing room. 

It was already 11 pm so I was slightly tired. I didn't even know how that was possible because all I've done was stay in bed, how could I be tired from that.. I was happy that I was already feeling much better by now, and I was hoping by the morning it will be even better. Actually, not hoping, I was sure it will be better!

I laid in bed for a long time, and despite being very tired, I couldn't fall asleep. My mind kept going to earlier today when Lando was here and he was acting so casual about everything. I thaught he'd want to talk about what happened this morning, or more so, what I thought was going to happen. I never let my body act on its own, and I don't even know why I thought that it was going somewhere. I assumed he was feeling the heat as well or that maybe he was so nice to me the whole day yesterday because he might like me. Even about texting Ramiro, he was acting jealous, at least that's what I thought, maybe he was just friendly like back in the day. I  definitely looked too much into it.

I should really stop thinking with my body and start thinking with my head. From now on, any slight signal I think I'm getting I'll just ignore it and move on. I think that's better, in order to try and save our friendship in the first place. I should be glad he's spending time with me, after how pissed he was about me leaving. I shouldn't have thought it's something else other than him trying to go back to being friends.

I'm overthinking everything too much, it was already 2 AM and I wasn't sleeping yet. How could have so many hours pass by, while all I did was think stuff over. I decided to put some chill music on, or as I like to call it, sad music. Sometimes it helps me get my mind off of things and fall asleep easier.

I don't even realize when I drift off because as per usual, the music worked.