Racing hearts reunited

Part 13

                                   ~ Lando Norris~

Previous day- At Hospital

That night I couldn't sleep. All I wanted to do was ask the doctors if I can stay over, to make sure she's alright. To just sit there in case she needed anything.

I couldn't comprehend the fact that her family didn't want to sleep over. I mean I at least expected her mom to stay by her side. I can't imagine getting a surgery myself and then all my family members say they are tired and head to bed. I get it, big day the following day, but still, all I can think about is how alone she must've felt. I also had a big day and would've risked being tired for it.

I tossed and turned the whole night waiting for the alarm to ring in order to know it's time I can check up on her.  I check the time and see that it's already 5:30, good enough. I get ready and by 6 I'm already reaching the hospital. I was eager to see her, and know if she's alright.

...

Last night was horrible, I want to get it out of my head.
I could tell she was not feeling well since we got to dinner. Her face was off, she was looking like she was in slight pain the whole night.

Of course I offered to go earlier home, with the excuse that I had to wake up early, I wanted her to have the option of leaving earlier in case her family wanted to stay more, which ended up actually happening. I was more than happy to leave the dinner to make sure she was alright.

When her dad told me to  look after her, and make sure she gets home safe, I almost let out a chuckle. Of course I was going to take care of her, nobody had to tell me to, I was going to do it regardless.

The ride home was slightly awkward, I don't know why, I was really trying to integrate her into our life today, so she could feel more welcomed and not so on the side. Even though the past years, she's been nowhere around, so she really was on the side. Even tho she made sure to keep in touch with our main events, she missed our new day to day rutines, and lots of other details that she could only get if she was living in the same country or at least pay more attention or visit us.

I decided to take her to her door just to make sure she gets in alright, I wouldn't want anything to happen and to feel guilty that I didn't take care enough.

Right when we reached the door, I stopped to take a quick glance at her before she got ready to close the door, but then she didn't. She just stoped the door before closing and  stood there for a sec.

"I'm sorry I didn't see your texts all this time ago" the words coming out of her mouth hit me straight in the chest. I knew exactly what texts she meant. I sent those texts to her when I was drunk on a guys nights out, the day after I broke up with my ex. I knew it was wrong, and that she wouldn't reply, but I remember being so nervous about texting her, even tho I was wasted.

I always had feeling for her, and tried to hide them as deep down as possible, to try and never let anything show. I couldn't be in love with my best friend's sister. Nobody would allow it and he would never forgive me, so I decided to burry my feelings deep down since we were young and just listening to music on a bench in the park together.

But in the moment I sent those texts I was weak, I let my feelings let loose. The moment I broke up with my ex, Luisinha, I knew that our whole relationship was just a cover up for my feelings for Mia, just as the one before... and the one before

"Oh I don't know, don't worry, it was a long time ago, I can vaguely remember" I try to lie my way out of it but I'm not sure I can

"Oh, ok then. Well I'm sorry again for not being there in case you needed a friend or whatever..., goodnight I guess..?!" She says, again trying to avoid me, when I snap. In that moment her words hurt me deep inside, I knew maybe I didn't mean to her as much as she does to me but regardless, you can't just be ignorant towards someone like that.

And that's when I go on a rant. I can't even remember what I said, all I remember was by the end of it was out of breath and felt a lot worse then better as I expected. Seeing her face in shock and her mouth open as well, I regretted everything I said the second it got out. I said everything I ever hold against her, even things about her leaving which happened years ago, but I never got over. I don't know if it was the place and time but in the moment I felt it needed to be said.

"Well good to know I guess. And yes I am very happy with my choice of working in Milan" she says in an incredibly angry tone a second before slamming the door in my face.