The Fear of Letting Go (BoyXBoy)

Chapter Seven; Kai Avery

~West*~

You know, I've been thinking about something for a long time. I've been thinking about it, mulling it over, and I've finally come to a conclusion. 

Liam Weekes is cute.

Like... really cute.

It feels kind of weird to say that about him, considering how manly he looks, and how much of a brat he can be. All of that aside though, I just can't really help myself. The dude is straight up adorable. 

Not really adorable in his looks, parse, but, uh... more in his personality. No, no. In the looks department... whether you're gay or straight, the dude is just a straight up babe. 

He's a fairly tall guy, maybe about up to Blake's eyes, so slightly taller than me, with broad shoulders and bulging muscles that shone through the creases of his shirts. Flawless olive skin and dark, raven hair that had a reddish tint when the sun hit. His hair curled up towards the ends, just barely grazing over his mahogany eyes. His tied together his look with a gorgeous, cocky, devilish grin that showed off his pearly teeth. He had two beauty marks on his face, one on his right cheek, and the other just below his left eye. Through all of his perfection, however, there was a slight crook to his nose, which he later informed me was due to the fact that an ex-girlfriend of his had punched him for sleeping with her next door neighbor. He revealed that he was very self conscious about it, which was surprising, simply because of how cocky he is. In all honesty, I just thought that it made him look more wild and rugged. 

For someone who acts like such a princess, the dude was pretty manly looking. A pretty boy, for sure, but still manly nonetheless. As handsome as Liam is though, that wasn't what made him so adorable to me. 

While other people didn't really see it, Liam was actually incredibly shy. He was almost always nervous, even if he put on a sour face for everyone else. While most people see a stuck up, know-it-all with his nose high in the air, Liam was actually anything but. 

I remember my first time seeing him in the mall. I thought shit was going to go down because Blake had brought another man to the mall, in front of Kai, no less. I remember actually being worried for Kai. I was thinking, wow, and he's actually really hot. Hotter than Kai, man, that must suck for him. Not only did I think this guy was going to whoop Kai's ass, he was better looking to boot. 

What I saw that day was a confident, independent and fearless man who wore that cocky, proud smile for all to see. He showed himself off like a prize and had no shame in going after what he wanted. After getting to know him even just a little bit, I could see that even if that was what everyone saw when they looked at him, we all couldn't have been more wrong.

Yes, he may have seemed so confident and suave at most times but when he got around someone who he genuinely liked, like Blake, for example, he was shy and sputtered for words. He didn't really talk much and tended to keep to himself. He watched people very carefully, not really putting himself into situations.

Even though I love Blake and Kai together as a couple, I still actually kind of felt bad for Liam.

You could tell that he really did love Blake, in his own sort of way, and he was trying everything that he could to get Blake to see that. He made Blake the only person in his life and to me... that was just sad.

I could easily see that he was in need of a friend and as it just so happened, I was too. I can't remember the last time I hung out with Kai one on one. He was always blowing me off for Blake, who had Kai wrapped around his finger. Don't get me wrong, I didn't blame Blake or Kai in the least. I love them together; I'm happy for them. They're in love; there's nothing that I can do about it.