July has been amazing so far. I finally celebrated my birthday in June and turned 26. It's an age I didn't expect to reach so quickly. I've accomplished a lot of things. I can't mention all of them, but the most significant change is when I finally moved to a city on a different island away from my family. I live alone now because I have to work here. I meet a lot of new people with different characters. I'm building trust in myself, proving that I can do this and that.
I'm grateful for everything that has happened in my life, but something that keeps running through my mind is why my closest people didn't celebrate my birthday. Just saying something would have been enough. Although I was celebrated by my ex-coworkers, who I consider friends, it still feels like birthday celebrations aren't special anymore. But I think the reason I still want someone to acknowledge my birthday is because I'm afraid of being forgotten. I want to be surrounded by people I cherish.
I have two best friends, but one of them seems to have forgotten all of my kindness and only thinks about herself. I was there for her during her lowest moments, but now she totally forgets me. I guess this is how adult life is, right? I believe this is just one bad thing that happened in my life. I have plenty of things to be grateful for and many cherished moments with those who want to be in my life.
I guess the best way to learn from my story is to let go. Let go of people who don't want to be with you. Don't force relationships, and don't sacrifice yourself. People are human, and they have feelings. If it doesn't feel right, then let go.
Letting go doesn't mean you forget everything you've done with them. Letting go doesn't mean you need to seek revenge. Letting go is an action to bring peace to your mind. Letting go is an act of finally accepting that life isn't always what you want it to be, and that's totally fine. People come and go, and they might come back or they might not. But that's totally fine. You have to remember that you still have a lot of people around you: your family, and your other friends.
Be kind and be nice :)
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
A 26-Year-Old's Diary
غير روائيA collection of thoughts from a 26-year-old girl who's never been in a relationship, works a 9-5 job, is uncertain about the future, believes in God, and often has a lot on her mind.
