It hurts so much when you like someone, but he doesn't pick up on your signals. He avoids you, or maybe he likes you but is questioning whether you're the right choice or if he's just afraid to admit it. What I keep wondering is why God sends me guys I don't like but keeps the one I do like away from me. The ones who approach me are such jerks, while the guy I want stays distant.
Today hurt me more than usual. He kind of gave me closure—by avoiding me—and it broke my heart. I feel jealous whenever I see him around other people, especially with a girl. I'm scared this feeling will grow, and I'm so tired of him giving me closure—always. I want him to know that I like him, but I get the feeling he's not ready for a relationship. There's no progress between us. We used to be really close, but now that connection seems to have disappeared.
Is it because he found someone else? Is it because he likes someone else? It hurts so much. But today, I think I finally understand what closure is and how it feels. What makes me sad is, why do I always have to feel this way? I deserve someone who can love me better than I love myself. I deserve someone who loves me more than I love them. I deserve someone with the great personality and qualities that I'm looking for.
Still, I'm left wondering about this chapter of my love life.
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
A 26-Year-Old's Diary
No FicciónA collection of thoughts from a 26-year-old girl who's never been in a relationship, works a 9-5 job, is uncertain about the future, believes in God, and often has a lot on her mind.
