different // j.b

Chapter 33

Elena's POV
My day in the Bahamas with just amazing with Justin. We thought we saw flashing, but apparently not because no ones posted anything of any of us.

We've been home for a few days not and can I say that Justin's gotten what you call intimate.

He left me a hickey one day and I had to cover it up with a scarf for 2 days. I don't know how we even led to there, but we did.

I was head over heels for him and I actually like that we were taking it "slow" like he didn't ask me out right of the bat. I wouldn't mind, but I appreciate him more for being patient, not rushing things. Especially since I know what he's been through and what I've been through.

Justin said he had to go record another song at the studio for his upcoming album for next year so I just decided to take a walk today.

There wasn't much around my neighborhood so I took my car to a park and then walked around there and around the streets.

All of the sudden I started hearing flashing. Like a lot of flash going off, but it wasn't towards me. It was definitely paparazzi's I jut didn't know where so I walked around the corner to see who was there.

As I turned the street I stop feeling my heart shatter into a million pieces.

There he was holding another girls waist and kissing her. So much for Justin having to go to the studio..

That asshole, and to think I actually thought he was different. I should of known better. How could he like me anyways. A girl like me didn't belong with someone like him.

The girl he holding, she's definitely worth it, that's why he's with her and not me..

I didn't even cry. He wasn't worth my tears, I just backed up slowly and walked back to my car. My eyes were burning with hatred and hurt.

Justin: I'll be at your place soon (;

Elena: Don't bother I'm not home

Justin: Well then I'll come over later (:

Elena: I'm sleeping over at a friends

Justin: Alright then.. I'll see you tomorrow but I miss you..

"Sure you did ya little shit head." I mumbled while typing.

Elena: Yup, kay, bye.

Was the last thing I sent and turned my phone off knowing the press was going to release the photos sooner or later.

We were better off friends anyways, but now we can't even be friends until I'm over it. Cause I'm not over this, what we had was real for me. I fell for him hard and I should've just kept my wall up. Turns out he's just like everyone else sadly..

I went home not shedding anything but a tear. That's all. I wasn't going to cry anymore. I'm done. I've cried so much that I'm just so fed up and I'm not going to cry over another guy. Screw him.. I fucking hate him and I never wanna see him.

I went inside to get my stuff since I was staying with Justin until I got a place, but it was fine I'll go back to my dads for awhile I thought.

"Shit." I mumbled to myself hearing the front door slam.

"Elena! I saw your car outside are you here?" He screaming.

I just grabbed what I had in my duffle bag and just decided to book it and leave.

I grabbed my car keys and was going to go out the window, but the bitch ass got there before I could leave.

"Where..are you going?" He said laughing.

"Wherever I want to." I said harshly.

"Elena what's wrong lol?" He said coming closer.

"Don't.. Touch me, it was fun being you're charity case. Funny how you betray the one person who didn't treat you like shit." I said my eyes welling up.

"Elena what are you talking about?" He said coming closer.

"Don't come near me! I'm pretty sure you had a lot of fun at the record in studio." I said smirking.

"Wha- wait? How.. Um, I can't explain Elena.." He said.

"That's what they all say, you're just like the rest of the guys I dated." I said pushing passed him but then he grabbed my arm.

"Elena! Please don't leave me!" He said as his eyes got watery.

"Justin, I can't be here. Can't you see what you've done to me! You played me! You made me feel on top of the world but now I feel like I'm just nothing." I said looking down backing up.

"Elena! You promised you wouldn't leave me the way Selena did.." He said shedding a tear.

"...I..that..that doesn't count Justin. She left you, and you played me just as much as she played you." I said looking him dead in the eye.

"You promised.." He said.

Then I walked out.. I sat in my car and just sat there. I didn't know what to do so I finally let it out. I cried and I cried, for what seemed like hours was only 20mins.

How could he play me like that? Elena you keep your promises too. Knowing me, I always put the ones I loved above me. I put them first and me last.

I got out the car leaving my bag in there and opened the door.

I looked around and I saw a hole punched in the wall and him full of tears holding his hand.

"What are you doing here, you left?" He said standing up.

"I never left the driveway, I don't break my promises. I said I wouldn't leave you, doesn't mean I forgive you." I said trying not to look at him.

"Elena please.. I'm sorry." He said.

"I bet you are, and I wanna forgive you, but I can't. You've proved me wrong.." I said looking at him.

I grabbed his face and wiped away all the tears.

"Stop crying, I'm not worth your tears. I'm nothing special." I said going to the kitchen.

I opened up the freezer and put ice in a sandwich bag. Then I sat Justin down and placed the eyes on his knuckles.

"I mean what I say, I keep my promises..unlike others." I said to him coldly.

"She reminded me of Selena.. She said all the right things and I just, I just.." He said being interrupted.

"You don't have to explain, it's okay." I said.

"I never forgot about you, I was thinking about you the whole time. I promise you I'm over Selena.." He said looking at me.

"Then you wouldn't have kissed her." I said back.

He didn't say anything after that he just looked down at his hand that I was holding with a bag of ice.

"It's okay that you're not over her, it's okay to admit it. Just don't play girls when your not over one. Don't do what you did to me to the next girl." I said standing up and leaving to my room.

I can't believe I'm actually staying.