The lightest sun

Chapter 13

Cole
"Life with her is a damn difficult Rubik's cube."

Sweat was dripping all over me. On the face, causing the ends of the hair to get wet, on the stomach, from which t-shirt also became like one big dark spot, sticking to the body. Even on my damn ass, and even that doesn't help get rid of the thoughts that are in the house. Where she is.

I knew that you shouldn't be angry with a person and be rude, which is why I often let out my anger and fatigue on the ice, but since the idiot Clarson and Coach Wills are breathing down the back of my neck, it was always easier to be angry like a little boy and not even answer the message. It's bad , but I'm just human.

Almost two days have passed since that moment and I still cannot put the whole puzzle of events together. I again approached her so close that I could feel her heart ready to jump right into my hands. And this is not good, I don't want to hurt her with stupid hopes, so we have become a good team of friends, even if I am haunted by thoughts of fucking my friend, this does not change anything.

I thought in a few weeks we began to understand each other, that is, not to be sarcastic with every second sentence, there was already progress for us, and the way she and Amy always accompanied me became so important that my heart stopped for a second that very morning. When, like a complete idiot, I stood there with a note in the middle of the kitchen, "I left." Very detailed isn't it?

I shouldn't have reacted like that. She is right. I'm just her temporary boss or friend, but I will never become a part of her life. Perhaps this is for the better, but everything inside me wants to help her get rid of all the problems in her head.

"You're about to tear this bag apart, Cap." Jake said, bringing him closer to me, forcing me to catch my breath. "Get some rest and you stayed the longest today." He handed me a bottle of water and I immediately began to swallow it greedily, sinking to the surface of the hall.

Tomorrow we have our second and last away game against the Hurricanes, after which we return home with the hope that the semi-final is in our pocket. We were confidently leading 3:0, so the coach made a gym day from the day off so that I quote, "We did not forget that in any case our asses remained tense." only now we're already alone here and I'm playing with fire at the risk of not getting back to the game. To hell.

"And I'm listening." My best friend fell down next to me. "I didn't think that we would ever switch places."
"Don't talk nonsense. Then you almost cried on my shoulder because of the Eva's decision to break up with you."
"Fuck you." His hand pushed me on the shoulder. "And mind you, she's still with me."
"And? I'm happy about you." I shrugged and squirmed, feeling muscle pain. It seems I overdid it. "But it has nothing to do with me."
"Wait a second..." His fingers theatrically dropped to both earlobes, making a movement towards me. "Use your noodles and eat. Better than lying to a friend."

"Okay, okay, it's because of Jane." My words caused a slight grin.
"I understood it. What happened?"
"We quarreled, I reacted too sharply to the fact that she didn't see me off and just left without saying anything except a fucking note."
"It got to you." Jake chuckled, thinking. "You're in love !"
"Quiet! And no." I let my head fall to my knees. "I'm just drawn to her, you know?"

I felt his hand pat me on the back encouragingly.
"I understand, but isn't it easier to call then if she ignores."
"Actually, I was an ass and didn't respond to her message where she wished me luck." As soon as my words reached his ears, I received a well-deserved slap on the head."

"Where are your brains?" He muttered. "She's one of those girls who are afraid of the present and are sitting in the castle of the past. Judge, according to your stories, you've just screwed yourself up big time guy."