Beautiful Lie [Draco Malfoy lovestory]

4. Letters

I sat on my window ledge stroking my cat Lila's soft white fur, as I watched our family's owl fly into the distance.
It would sure be a shock to everyone to hear about me suddenly moving schools.
While I had already gotten comfortable with the idea of going to Hogwarts, none of my friends had ANY idea yet.
I kind of felt as I had already sort of replaced them in a way..
But I knew that would never be possible.
Our time at Durmstrang was simply sth unforgetable.
I wanted to show them exactly that and obv keep in contact with them.
Moving schools did not mean forgetting everything.

I had already made plans for my best friend Lea to stay for a while, since my mum and older sister would be visiting dad in the UK and stay there to handle some of the wedding preperations.
I absolutely did NOT want to stay in this huge house all by myself. Even my brothers would not be there, as they wanted to come with, while I was pissed at my dad and did not want to keep in contact, they still did not quite understand what was going on or just did not care enough.
I ruffled my hair, picking up my cat to lay on top of me. WHY DIDN'T I THINK OF HAVING A PARTY SOONER??
Maybe I should invite Blaise etc as well?
Or would these Durmstrang kids be too wild for them.
I chuckled thinking about drunk little Draco. I had heard that he would have almost gone to Durmstrang as well.
He wouldn't mind would he?
What if he actually did end up in my school?
I couldn't help but think that things would have been quite different.
He wasn't my usual type, but I did find him quite attractive actually.
Maybe it was the way he held himself, the way he spoke so confidently as if he was better. In way sth like that annoyed the shit out of me but it was a turn on nonetheless.
Maybe I just wanted sth different after breaking things off with my long term boyfriend Viktor. YES. THE VIKTOR KRUM.
We started dating before his quidditch career started though. I have to admit, that our relationship was never the healthiest one, considering our age gap and all, but things just got extremely messed up when he wanted to take things to the next level. He started to pressure me ,sometimes even using violence. But he never raped me or beat me up? In my heart I still felt as if he was a good man. I mean I knew this guy since I was 11. I could never hate him. I had been in love with him for 5 fucking years. And the day I turned 13 we started dating. I would have never thought that my stupid childish crush would actually return my feelings one day, and I would have never thought things would get this out of control. But I still blamed his friends for putting pressure on him and not him. But when some of the older students, including him went away last year for the tournament, I got news of him persuing another girl sort of.
That was when I was simply done with all of this shit.
We hadn't talked for a quite some time. I didn't try to contact him, but neither did he. I don't know why. But that fact stung like thousand needles at once. I had expected for him to at least try and send me a letter , try to save our relationship. Didn't he miss me?
Did he even love me at some point? I didn't know and quite frankly I didn't want to know anymore. I just wanted to be able to stop thinking about him, when I was laying in my bed all alone blaming all of it on none other than myself.
He was everything to me during this time, the only one I dared to talk about my problems with, the only one I fully trusted. You could say over time I had gotten extremely attached to him, to a point where I thought I could not even LIVE without him by my side.
Maybe it could have worked out if I had just done what he asked. Of course he would get bored of me after some time..
But I just wasn't ready. I didn't feel right.

I heard a knock at my door, before one of our house elves ,Blinky, stuck her head out behind my door.
" I didn't see you at breakfast. Is everything alright Miss Lily? I brought you some fruit and your coffee!"
My cat had sprung out my lap, so I sat home and gave her a warm smile.
She was just too cute. She had always seemed to care more about me than the rest of the people in my house.
"No just all of those sudden changes.. Do you maybe wann sit with me for a while? We can share the fruit?"
"No I couldn't possibly dream of sharing a meal with Miss Lily!", Binky gasped.
She did sit next to me though.
"Oh and I should let you know that Mrs. Avery has gone out to shop for your school suppiles!"
"And she didn't think of taking me with her? They're my supplies."
"You know she's in a bad mood today Ms Lily. You should be glad you didn't join the family downstairs today!",Blinky winked and handed me my coffee.
Just what I needed on this dark morning.
"It's because they're going to see dad tomorrow is it?"
"I can only imagine",Blinky sighed.
Everyone in the house was already used to my mum's mood changes and tried to always tip toe around the big elephant in the room. My dad. If he was mentioned your whole day would 100% be ruined.

We just sat there and talked for a bit. I also ended up telling her about my plans to throw a party and Blinky promised to prepare everything for us.
I gave her a big hug before she left the room.