Love in Many Forms V.1: How It All Started

Chapter 4: Souls That Met and Became One

Let me take you back on a journey on how I first told Kent through chat about how I really felt about him, what happened on that day was I was at the lowest phase in my life and had no one to talk to, I had my friends but didn't want to be a burden to them so I lost control of my emotions and went to Kent to open up then I went back to my house and him and I chatted, It was January 6, me and Kent were chatting about bikes and talking shit about each other while laughing, but then all of a sudden he asked me a question that I could not get out of my head for weeks, I will make a short convo for you to understand how it went like: Kent: "When did you start admiring me?"

Aya: "Uhh"

Kent: "Sorry, was it sudden again?"

Aya: "NO no"

Kent: "Okay thanks, I'll listen"

Aya: " I knew I started admiring you when we talked deeply"

Kent: "When was that?"

Aya: " When we were in the classroom"

Kent: "When you opened up?"

Aya: " Wow what a miracle, you remembered" (FYI: Kent has short term memory)

Aya: "I cried in front of you while I opened up and you were there listening to me"

Kent: "Sorry if I didn't talk much that time, but I'll listen to you naman"

Kent: "But it's so sudden and I felt uncomfortable, but it was fine with me"

Aya: "I'm so sorry"

Kent: "For me, you should have asked to talk to me privately or when it's just the two of us, I don't want people to hate you for that"

Aya:" I'm to shy to ask you"

Kent: "It's fine, but thanks for admiring me Aya." 

Aya: "You're welcome"

Aya: "You're the reason why I stopped crying so much in the classroom"

Kent: "Good to know, that you're not a cry baby anymore HAHAHA"

Kent: "It's okay naman to cry, you need to release your feelings din eh"

Aya: "It's fucking embarrassing for me" 

Kent: "Were humans din eh"

After we had that conversation, my mind just shut down in a way I was shy to open up to Kent, but he was the only one who listened and understood me so much. Fast forward a bit, it was now April 25, me and Kent were still chatting, but we already had a thing that time, but then all of a sudden I popped a question that would stutter the both of us that night: "Hey, before we get together do you think you should court me first?" he said: "In what way do you want me to court you, miss nurse" (FYI: Our first callsign was Miss Nurse and Patient because I always chatted him if he ate or took a bath already and he thought I treated him like a patient). Back to the chat, "Court me in a way that you know that you don't want to lose me, understand me in ways no one would ever do for me, and love and treat me right" he chatted back with: "I guess I already passed the test, miss?" I replied, "Yes you have my passed the test my patient" with a smiley face he replied: "Great, what's the next step?" I replied: "Let's get to know each other even more and be happy, whatever we may fight about we will fix" he replied: "I got it miss, alright" Then we said our goodnights and I went to sleep with a wide smile. Days went by, Kent still stayed consistent then I asked him another question: "Hey have you considered if you want to court me?" but my heart dropped when he said this: "Oh wait I'm sorry I didn't clarify things, Aya I'm sorry but I'm still not ready but I like you" My mind just went blank and I couldn't reply to him for 5 minutes, then I replied: "Oh But I thought you were already courting me?" he replied: "Aya I'm sorry, I still need to think about it but, can you wait for me?" I replied and had the guts to say it straight: "It's okay I understand, let me court you instead." he replied: "Wait what why?" I said genuinely: "Because I know you're still traumatized by what happened with your last girl, let me be the one to show you this time how love should really work and be, Kent". He couldn't reply back for a few seconds, and I was already starting to panic, but he started typing and this is what he said: "Aya, thank you for being patient with me and always understanding me, okay you can court me." I was happy then I replied: "Don't worry, I promise to shower you with love, care, loyalty, faithfulness, and constantly understand you Baby"   then we started going near each other even more during class and started showing others that there really was something going on just not our teacher. Bill Russell once said: "To love someone is nothing, to be loved by someone is something, to love someone who loves you is everything." and when I read that quote, I realized I was nothing when I met Kent, just a lowly girl who had not much plans in life but to grow and be alone or either way die alone, but when I met him, he gave me a reason to live and be happy again and loving him meant everything to me. Each day and every time I spent my time with Kent, my feelings for him grow fonder and deeper and I enjoyed seeing him so much, I fell in love with him even more when him and I would just talk about things, we never ran out of topics but sitting in silence and enjoying the weather after a school day with our hands on the ground trying to reach each other's fingers and watching him stare at the skies with the wind flowing by him at the perfect direction and him catching me stare at him, makes my heart filled with rainbows and candies and unicorns running around in joy. Whenever he talks to me, I listen to him very carefully analyzing his every word, every tone, every move he makes, and every mood. Listening to him talk was one of the best music to listen to and his voice is my favorite sound, that soothing, calming, gentle, concise, angelic voice. Even if I'm with him for 2-3 hours, it felt like 5 minutes, he would often tell me to stay longer because he wants to talk more, I knew one day wasn't enough for us, but that's all I could give to Kent because I have strict parents, but he understood me and still thanked me for giving all my time to him just to talk, I would feel so guilty after leaving him because I too enjoyed his company. Little did Kent know every time he would send me pictures or videos of himself and delete them afterwards, I quickly press "Save" and keep it to myself. I would blush so hard staring at his photos and videos, I didn't really care if it was the same photo I didn't get tired of looking at his handsome angelic face, I would jump from joy in my bed, think about him constantly till I hug my phone with his pictures. I remembered the time when I told him that he was really handsome, he responded with a: "No amp" and I'd laugh and tell him over and over that he really is handsome, and I wasn't kidding. Truth be told he really is handsome, his beautiful Moreno (brown) skin, his tall and slender physique (He's 5'8 btw if you're wondering), his straight black hair, his gorgeous thin almond black eyes, his cute button nose, his non-chapped lips that makes me nervous, and he has a mole on his cheek and I find it cute because I have a mole on my cheek too, and his veiny arms and hands that I secretly stare at when he's not looking, I felt nervous and hot whenever I saw them. I remembered whenever they were exposed, I'd stare at it while he talks, but he calls my name again and again: "Aya? what's up with you? Aya?" and I respond with: "Huh? oh uh it's nothing." with a red face and acted like nothing really happened. Turns out he noticed the whole time I stared at his hands; I GET REALLY SHY WHENEVER HE BRINGS THAT TOPIC UP LIKE DON'T, PLEASE and he'd just laugh at me but I really didn't mind because seeing him laugh and smile because of me makes me even happier whether I was clumsy or clueless or telling him jokes, I made a way to make him laugh because seeing him grumpy all the time made me frowny too, but I still find it really cute. Then it was fourth quarter now, everyone was so excited to finally finish grade 10, actually I was too but not really because I still wanted to be with my friends, Lia, Gwyn, Gab, Arcenas and with Kent more, so I treasure every moment with them, cherish the laughter and times we shared, the times we ate in one circle both recess and lunchtime, the times we helped each other give answers and help in the subjects we were failing in, the times where I'd treat them all to food, and played games with them. They truly were the best group of friends I could ever ask for, they were good influences to me and taught me a lot about life. But of course, we felt guilty especially the girls for making Jazz feel left out since she was in another section, but we still found ways to spend time with her. I remembered the times when we teased each other for shipping the boys with us, we shipped Lia with Gab, Jazz with Arcenas, and of course, Me and Kent, Gwyn wasn't interested and had no match, so she just laughed at all of us for finding our matches. Lia and Jazz did not agree at all because they too weren't interested of ready to enter a relationship yet, but Gab and Arcenas were head over heels for them, while me and Kent just laughed secretly because they had no clue, we already had a thing for each other. Being with my friends and Kent were the best times in Grade 10, they were the reason why I go to school every day, and they were the only reason why I missed grade 10. I do miss grade 10, because I got to be with my friends for the last time and that's where I met Kent. Then one day, an activity from our Mapeh teacher came up, the activity was to dress up as your career when you grow up, so we were given 3 weeks to find an outfit, and me and the girls were excited yet stressed because we were all picky with our clothes and the boys in our group were just chill. Little did I know Kent was having problems on finding an outfit, so I came to him and talked to him that I'd be willing to help to show him I care and to give back for all the times he helped me, but he told me he wouldn't go but I kept convincing him to go, participating in that activity will help a lot with his grades, so he said: "It's your choice, but thank you Aya for making the effort to find me an outfit." I told him: "It's not a problem, I promise I won't give up just to find you something to wear." I searched all over online just to find something that suits him, it took me exactly 2 weeks because most of the suits were expensive, but I didn't want to give up and stayed up all night finding the perfect suit for him. But then suddenly, ma'am told us in class that we had to do modules and stay home because of the recent hot weather and there are students that have gotten sick because of the heat. The only reaction I had was desperation because I couldn't see Kent and my friends for a while, I didn't enjoy doing my modules alone, so I made an excuse to my mom to go out to do my modules but to actually see Kent while doing our modules at the same time. We did modules together at 7/11 near his house, and while we did it, I really didn't do any of it I just watched him do his work and he would tell me: "Hey, do your modules now so you won't have to do anymore at your house." and I responded: "Nah, I already finished them at home, I just wanted to see you." then he looked at me with a confused face and just went on with his work while I admired him for being so hardworking with his schoolwork. We did that together almost every week together and I enjoyed it very much. But then one day while I was waiting for him outside near his house, I saw him on a motor with some of his friends and they started teasing me and Kent because they were suspecting there was something, but we just smiled and went on our way back to our usual spot to 7/11.When I went back to my house, I realized that there were no available suits that would fit him and they were all so expensive, so I had another idea, I asked Jazz's big brother if I could borrow a suit he never uses because he has the same physique as Kent and turns out he has! I was so happy I had to tell Kent right away, when I messaged him, He was also surprised that I actually found an outfit for him to wear, then I told him: "Of course, I promised I wouldn't give up on you." and he replied: "Thanks Aya for the effort, I really appreciate it" I replied: "You're always welcome, Kent!" Then there was tiny little problem, he had no white long sleeve polo, so I decided to buy him one and surprised him with it, he was hesitant at first, but I told him with a frowny but giggly expression: "Just take it so the next time you need something to wear, you now have that." He smiled and said: "Thank you Aya for everything." I responded: "I got you." with a winky face emoji. The only problem now was how to give it to him, I still had no money to hire someone to deliver it to him, so I decided to tell Kent I will give it to him myself since I had the chance to see him secretly. It was April 28, me and Kent saw each other somewhere far outside from school for the first time. He was wearing a white shirt and black pants with his Vans and I blushed really hard because I was wearing a white dress with flower prints. Then we greeted each other and decided to buy Vitasoy, he opened the door for me and I looked at him with a smile and said: "Thank you, what a gentleman" and we bought our drinks hurriedly and I by the tiles. But all of a sudden while I was sitting down already waiting for Kent, he saw a kid who asked Kent if he had spare change, so Kent told the kid to wait for him outside, and Kent came back with a pack of Oreos and gave it to the kid and said: "This was all I could afford, kid" and he gave the kid a pat on the head and he was walking towards me. I gotta tell you my heart was so full of joy seeing that I chose the right guy, then as Kent sat beside me he opened the drinks for us and we started talking, we talked and talked and we became quiet and smiled and laughed softly, then after our drinks finished,  I made the move to feel his touch, so I slowly tried to grab his fingers but all of a sudden he did the same thing too and HE GRABBED MY HAND AND HELD IT TIGHTLY.  I WAS IN COMPLETE SHOCK BUT I LIKED IT, so I held it even tighter to show him HOW LONG I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT MY WHOLE LIFE. Then I tried to lean by his shoulders and I did, we enjoyed it and smiled, it felt like our heartbeats synced that time and I didn't want it to end, there was a song that played in my head that time, it was Melting by Kali Uchis, because MY HEART REALLY WAS MELTING WHEN WE HELD HANDS AND ME LEANING ON HIS BROUD SHOULDERS, "OH MY GOODNESS WE FINALLY TOUCHED" I told myself in my head. But then I looked at him and smiled at him while looking into his eyes wanting to kiss him and he looked back at me with a soft expression. But I told myself, "Maybe in the right time, I'll kiss him" Because we were in a public place and I didn't want Kent to think that I was pushing things to fast. I told you people, I'm a patient person when it comes to love, but only for Kent. But then I got up and checked my phone to see what time it was, and HOLY SHIT IT WAS GETTING LATE I HAD TO HEAD HOME BECAUSE I TOLD MY MOM I WAS ONLY GOING TO CHURCH, so me and him got up, I gave him the polo and we smiled and I held his arms and he was looking for a Tricycle for me, and when he found one for me, I gave him a kiss on the cheek and left and saw him watch me leave and waved at him goodbye and I saw him smile so wide and waved goodbye to me too. I was the happiest girl that day. Then the day has come where we were all so excited to wear our dream outfits, I was in the bathroom getting all dolled up, then my girl classmates went inside and they said that my ass was so big and round that it could be seen through the jeans I was wearing, but all I said was: "Thanks" in a dry tone and gave a fake smile because I didn't know if that was a sincere compliment or a backhand compliment. As I finished getting ready and left the bathroom with my girls, there I saw Kent with the suit I chose for him LIKE LITERALLY I FELT SO PROUD AND HAPPY BECAUSE I FOUND HIM SOMETHING TO WEAR EEEK! Then we both entered the room together of course to show them THAT I OWN KENT, HE'S MY MAN. Then suddenly our Mapeh teacher told us to split our chairs and form a team to present our outfits, act like a model  and tell the whole class our name and our chosen careers. And shit since no one wanted to volunteer to present first, ma'am decided that she will choose who will present first, the first group were the boys at the back, I rolled my eyes secretly and because they all looked funny making weird poses thinking it would make the girls fall for them, LIKE HELL NAH I ONLY GOT EYES FOR MY MAN, SORRY NOT SORRY BOYS. Then after the boys, were other girls, and then it was our turn, I was shy but excited, (FYI: Gab was absent that time). The first to model their outfit was Arcenas, the career he chose was to become an Engineer, then it was Kent's turn and of course he chose Businessman, I was cheering for him quietly because I know if I made a sound, I would scream so loud! Of course I was proud of him, then it was my turn, I chose Ceo because my best friend, Lia already chose businesswoman but they're the same thing so yeah, then it was that skanky man stealing bitch's turn (I will not mention any names to avoid any trouble) she chose MEDtech like heck? But I didn't give a shit because I didn't want to waste my energy trash talking her, then it was Gwyn's turn, she chose to become a detective and boy was I impressed with the way she walked, then lastly, it was Lia's turn, I was excited to see her walk because she was a former model and pageant queen like me so I knew she was gonna slay that runway walk, and she did. Then fast forward, classes finished and we were all ready to head home, but not for me and the girls, we didn't want to waste a good outfit so we decided to go to Savemore and grab a bite. Then I asked if Kent could come and they were cool with it. So, we went there and ate and I treated them for snacks. When we sat down, Kent sat beside me and our legs were touching AND I WAS SOOOOOO HOT LIKE IN A WAY I FELT HIS LEGS BESIDE ME AND I WAS BLUSHING SO HARD INSIDE, so after we all ate, we all decided to go back to our houses and rest. I gotta tell you making this chapter took a lot of guts to do so but hey, I'm sharing my life story with you and just being open.