Love in Many Forms V.1: How It All Started

Chapter 7: You Heal Me, I Heal You

Me and Kent came from toxic relationships, of course as we enter this relationship together there will still be some things that will haunt us from the past, but that does not mean were only using each other as "character development", we got together to show and prove to each other that love still exists, and I believe him and I are right for each other, of course not all relationships will start off easy there will be endless arguments, petty fights, and  misunderstandings. But that won't change the love we have for each other we just need to understand each other more, as they say: "Communication is Key", but that will only work if the partners in the relationship are really sincere of their words and actions to fix the issues and to get to understand each other more. Most of the days when me and Kent are together, we laugh and smile together, but sometimes we won't always be there for each other physically when we need a shoulder to cry on because as you can see, I have strict parents and that is one of the biggest problems for me because I can't go to him when he needs me physically but he can go to me because his family is fine with him going out late, in times like those is where I feel most guilty it just seems so unfair in his part, so we cry alone in our rooms but we don't feel alone anymore as long as we can communicate through chats and video calls. But we both know it feels so wrong at the same time, what choice do we have? It's our only way to be in each other's presence to at least feel calm and loved. Here's a look back on our conversation: 


 Aya: "Love, please never hide your feelings from me alright? It's unfair that we laugh together but you suffer alone". 

Kent: "Love, you know I'm a man, I have to be strong for the both of us"

Aya: "I feel the same way too, but you have feelings to and so do I, it hurts me whenever you don't fully express your honest feelings towards me, it feels like we really aren't working together to make this work if you keep hiding your thoughts and feelings to yourself"

Kent: "I understand love, but I don't know how to properly explain how I really feel"

Aya: "Silly you don't need to, sure it'll take time to fully learn how to communicate your feelings verbally, but love I know you, tell you what you can just cry to me and hug me when you feel really hurt, no need for explanation I can see it already through your eyes and tears on how hurt you are, I will always understand you but if you do care about how I feel about you wanting to express how you feel to me, at least don't hide it please. You know that I'm here for you always, right?" 

Kent: "Love, I deeply apologize if I'm not good with words, but I do show how I really feel through my actions, I'll do better for you and me to show you how much I truly love and care for you, it won't happen again".

Aya: "You better do, because I don't want someone else better, I only want you so please, let's be more considerate about our feelings, okay?"

Kent: "To be honest it's me who should work on my ways"

Aya: "Why? I too have made mistakes in our relationship"

Kent: "Because you're really good to me and I feel like I'm just pushing you away"

Aya: "Honestly yes, you are pushing me away every time you randomly burst out to me that you've been feeling that way lately and you only told me now, it scares me, and I just don't feel trusted" 

Kent: "I'm sorry Love"

Aya: "Don't be I forgive you, okay? I love you so much I point out your mistakes, you point out mine, that's how we become better people together and, in a way, we don't want to hurt each other more by just tolerating the attitude that bothers us so much."

Kent: "Love, thank you for always understanding me and thank you for forgiving me, I promise you I will do better in communicating my feelings with you, let's be better for each other and try to understand why our attitudes and ways bothers us alright?" 

Aya: "I love that, thank you for hearing me out I just want to let you know no matter what happens, I will always choose you and I will love you in days where you feel misunderstood, unheard, not seen, and unlovable. I will choose you every day because I love you so much, I hope you keep that in mind and heart"

Kent: "Of course I do, I love you for that too, you put all your effort into understanding me even though I can tell your having trouble finding out on how to fix it"

Aya: "It's no trouble if it's you, you were never hard to understand my love, it's just that no one even tries to understand you in the ways you would do for them, that's why I'm here"

Kent: "Lord why have you given me this woman in the process of improving myself?"

Aya: "Because he knew you needed someone to love and understand you as much as I needed someone to love till the last breaths we take" 

Kent: "I love you so much baby, please don't leave me" 

Aya: "I won't ever do such thing, but please don't leave me too, I have given you every piece of love I had left of me, but you give back twice no, thrice the love I gave you"

 Kent: "I feel the same way too my love"

Aya: "So, we good?"

Kent: "Were good"

Aya: "Great! I'm glad you shared this with me"

Kent: "I love you so much"

Aya: "Aww baby, I love you more" 

Aya: "Together forever alright?"

Kent: "Together forever"

Aya: "You pinky promise?" 

Kent: "I pinky promise, cross my heart hope to die, if we meet again let's do the pinky promise"

Aya: "I'd love that very much!" 

Kent: "As we grow together, we heal together, and I'd very much love to give all that I have but even more than I already have to help the both of us heal."

Aya: "Were in this together baby, what lovers are for right?"

Kent: "What lovers are for baby, I love you till my last breath" 

Aya: "I love you till the day I take my last breath baby".


                                                       And so, the love story continues.