Tom Holland and Peter Parker one-shots 3.0

Wrong comment at the wrong time *part 2* (Tom Holland)

Tom's P.O.V

"We've been hooking up for eight months now, Tom. Eight months of us constantly having the conversation about when you were finally going to ask me out, eight months of you fucking me and then telling me that you weren't ready yet. That you wanted to wait another month still. Eight fucking months of me falling for you every time that we were together because I thought that you were feeling the same. Eight months of that and NOW is when you turn around and say that I'm better as a fucking hook-up?!" Y/N exclaimed and shook her head as tears ran down her face. Tom's face softened at her words, his eyes also glazing over as he looked at her. In reality, it was an understatement to say that Tom had also fallen deeply for Y/N too in the time that they'd been hooking up. He didn't even like her at this point, he was fully in love with her, but he was also a very emotionally stunted fuckboy who was very bad at portraying any emotion that didn't require the use of his dick. Tom was terrified of commitment, even with someone as perfect with Y/N, and so it had always been easier just to fuck her and hope that she would drop the idea of them dating. But of course, that hadn't been how things had happened, leaving Tom in the tough situation of him being too scared to ask her out, and her now thinking that his feelings for her had been a lie this whole time. He was screwed.

"Look, it was never my intention to do this to you. I do like you, Y/N, I really do, but I'm also not the guy for commitment-."

"That's what everyone says until they find the right person. Good to know I'm not the person who you give up your fear of commitment for." She choked and nodded as she grabbed her bag and turned for the door.

"You are! It's just that-."

"Just that what, Tom?! Please tell me because I cannot wait to hear this half-baked, arrogant asshole excuse for why after a year of fucking me and having feelings for me, you still can't find it in you to commit. Please tell me because I'd love to hear!" She laughed and shook her head as tears continued to stream down her face. His eyes wavered, a tear slipping down his own skin as he looked at her. It broke his heart to have made her this upset and to know that he'd really fucked up his chance with her, but he didn't know what else to do short of telling her the real truth. But that opened him up to getting just as hurt, and he wasn't ready for that. Not yet, anyway.

"I-I...I don't have an excuse." He shook his head. The beautiful girl nodded and harshly bit her lip.

"That's what I thought, Tom. That's what I thought." She choked and shook her head before opening his door and leaving his room. Tom just sat there in his bed as he watched her go, his heart and mind numbed from pain and anything else as he let her leave. Every inch of his body was begging him to move, screaming at him to go after her and tell her the truth but he just...couldn't. He didn't see a way back from this. He gulped harshly and wiped the tears from his eyes as he pulled the condom off and binned it. He grabbed his boxers and pulled them on, getting himself dressed again as he pulled on his t-shirt and a pair of sweatpants before heading downstairs. Harrison looked up at him from his seat at the breakfast bar in the kitchen, the blond boy's eyebrows furrowing as Tom slumped in.

"Mate, Y/N just rushed out, and she looked upset. Is everything okay?" He asked. Tom gulped and shook his head, the boy desperately trying not to cry as he gripped the edge of the counter and leant against it.

"No, it's really not. We were having sex and I let it slip that she would be better staying a casual hook-up than becoming my girlfriend." He mumbled quietly. Harrison's eyebrows furrowed and he narrowed his eyes at him.

"Okay...but she wouldn't be, because you love her, and you want her as your girlfriend, so why the fuck did you say that to her?" He scoffed.

"I said it because I'm fucking terrified of commitment, Haz. I love her but she's been asking since she first found out that I have feelings when I was going to make a move, but I've never gotten closer to being ready. I've been falling for her the whole time and yet I'm not ready yet. Maybe this is for the best, maybe it's best that our friends-with-benefits deal stops and she starts hating me so that neither of us get hurt any more than we already have been." He choked and shook his head.