Venting book

Rage...

This song perfectly describes what I have to say...

We always have this problem. We are always blamed for things we cannot control. For things that happen to us simply because that person who throws the blame never listens and never cares to understand us.

We all have that one person in our lives that will do their best to bring your downfall, to place you lower than themselves, to make you appear like a clown in a world even more messed up amd full of fools. That one person that no mayter how close everyone says you should be to them, they make you feel like you're worth nothing, not even their pinky finger, not a dime, not a pinch of dust.

That one person that never fimds anything good in what uou do, that always criticizes you for who you are, who laughs at you, who mocks you and disrespects every single part of your being.

That one person who always pick up fights and provokes you, who purposely teases and annoys the living hell out of you only for the sake of revealing you as a violent and immature creature.

That one person that appreciates absolutely nothing you do for them, that forgets just how much you actually care, forgets all the gifts you gave them simply to show you care. They treat it all like shit; it's like they forget you ever did something nice for them.

This one person that makes everyone hate you, regardless of how close they are to you, who always makes you appear like a problem to them, like nothing but a burden. This person who is willing to turn everyone against you, who will make them not desire your company at all, to cast you away for being an immature, lazy, creepy, mad, violent, weird, stupid and disrespectful creature.

Yes, this one person is always ready to go against you, to show everyone a version of you that is only the reflection of your despair. This one person that never ever listened, never ever cared and never ever loved you in the same way. This person will laugh at you when you're down, they will push you deeper down into your misery, they will never have anything nice to offer you. Only hatred, mockery, disrespect, lies and disdain.

To that one person that will not see this anyway, you're the only reason I'm always locking myself in that tiny room of mine. You're the reason I "talk to myself" and blast my music 'till I can't hear, you're the reason I am this violent when out of my comfort zone. You're the only reason everyone hates me for who I am, you're the reason I am so fed up with everyone and everything, the only reason I want to leave everything behind and just find my peace with those who understand me, with those who listen to me and care about me.
You're the only reason the voices in my head and every "imaginary friend" I have are the only ones who will ever keep me from falling into insanity!

You do not want to see me insane, you do not want me to do all the things I thought of doing to you! You do not want to know what the pain you put me through feels like!!