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Missy played the beat noticing my expression.
"It's beautiful"
"What?"
"The beat it has so much.....it tells a story"
"Well you asked me to make it plus you gave me a piece so obviously I had to make it like this."
"But I didn't think that it will turn out like this,you know your missy Elliott so of course it's gonna have a little bit of .......I don't know what you call it but it sounds like a beep that gives the song a little movement makes it more upbeat."
She looked kinda offended by what I said but squinted her eyes concentrating on me noticing I'm not acting like myself.
"Laila is everything ok?"
"What do you mean?"
"Yeah I'm good,I'm ok",
,"is everything ok Lai?",
", you know you can tell me anything,so..."
"Truth is missy it's alot worse I know I said it didn't affect me the way it is but right now I'm starting to miss layzie and....."
Teardrops started falling out of my eye sockets.
She pulled me in for a hug not letting me finish or else I would have cried alot.
"I'm sorry Lai,and I'm sorry things ended the way they did but look,who knows what if somewhere out there ,there's a guy who is....waiting for you or maybe your waiting for them you don't have to open up your heart so soon but all I'm saying is that you will find the one either sooner or later just don't focus too much on this ok?",
I wiped away my tears and started recording the song.
I was supposed to be recording a song called the one I gave my heart to bit missy thought the song was a little too sad for the audience so I just had to make another song that could explain how I'm feeling.
"Ok thank you Lai it sounds nice we just need to add some fi ishi g touches and then we'll be-"
"Lai are you ok?,
She pointed towards where I was and there I was sitting laying face down at the table my hands covering my face as I sat down not wanting to cry.
"Yeah I'm just hungry"
"No you're not,your not"
"I am I'm just ......."
"Anyway I have to go"
I stood up and went out of the studio calling it a day and Immediately went home.
While driving in my car I raised the volume listening to one of my songs, independent woman.
That's when I felt like I was making a fool out my self my mom always told me no one should ever make you cry,and if they do let them know they are screwed."
"All the honeys making money throw your hands up at me"
"Yeah actually why am I crying,who do you think you are,I'm Laila,Fulani smith ain't no way will I sit here crying over no man,
