The confessions of a Stark | Aemond Targaryen | hotd

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The sweet man I married is gone. I can feel it. Even when he promised he'd never leave my side again I feel vengeance is consuming him.

I went see Helaena today and... well I couldn't even get through to her. She seemed so absent and she kept mumbling something. As I walked closer I finally understood what she was saying. 'Was it worth the price' she kept repeating. I fear for Helaena and her children. I fear she's slipping into a space she can't climb out of.

Then news of Aegon awakening spread. I went to see him as soon as possible but I found Aemond there. Aegon look absolutely terrified of Aemond. I saw him hurt Aegon, pressing his hand on his burnt and bloody flesh while Aegon whimpered in pain. Aemond was saying something but I couldn't understand him. Suddenly as loud as Aegon could speak he said "I don't remember anything." I don't know what to think of what I saw. I just know Aemond looked up at me and I left quickly as possible.

When Aemond later came to find me he asked what I saw. I couldn't help but be afraid of him and I told him I only heard Aegon say he remembered nothing. He hummed in response and kissed my temple before leaving again. I don't know where he went.

I want to speak to Alicent but I fear she won't believe me. Or maybe she would but also is afraid of my husband.

I don't know what to do except write in my journal and pray Rhaenyra will be victorious over the throne and send peace over the Realm once again. I love Aemond and I feel like a traitor writing this, but it's true. When I begged Aemond to yield the throne and be done with this madness I spoke true.

I'm afraid for what will happen to us. If this war continues... Gods help us all. We have given the war to dragons and we can't go back.

Signed
Lady Y/n of House Targaryen
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So I'll put a quick author's note here:
I'm going to put this story on hold until a new season of HOTD drops. I'll finish/publish the drafts I still have but after that this story will be paused and I'm sorry for those who like this story very much because who knows when a new season will come. I know where I'll be heading with the story but I don't want to spoil shit for those who haven't read the books. Though this is a fanfic I want to stay as close to the original as possible. I've definitely scrambled the order of events here but I can do whatever I want because it's a FAN FICTION.

In the meantime I'll be working on a different fanfic also based around HOTD. It's a story I've been fantasizing about before I sleep and I thought I'd permanently put it down